Hardest love 2

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I looked at him for a while and so did he. He wanted to say something so I was just waiting for him to actually do.
"I didn't have sex with her" he said softly. I titled my head a little, I should've expected that Millie would lie.
"But you did invite her?" He nodded with a sigh. He obviously regretted that, I could see that. "We did some things, I'm not gonna lie about that but I stopped her. I couldn't do that. I was thinking about you, I'm thinking about you all the time" I could see that he was completely honest. I don't know how to explain it but I felt that.
"I'm thinking about you all the time too" I said as I looked down. It was the truth but unfortunately we had such a toxic relationship which wasn't his fault, it was both of us. We both did stupid things.

"But I can't be in a relationship right now, I need to work on myself and honestly you need to concentrate on your career and car" I looked up and looked straight in his eyes.
I've never was this honest to him or to myself. "But I wanna concentrate on you too. You're the only one who can calm me down" he said and I immediately shook my head. "No Lando, you don't need anyone. Not me, not Millie. You can do it all by yourself" he sighed a little before pulling me into a hug. I wrapped my arms around him and hugged him back.
I didn't know if I was making the right decision, I was definitely in love with him but I didn't want him to be with me because he thought he needed me.
I wanted him to be with me because he loved me.

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"So you didn't get back together?" Scott was sitting on my bed while I was taking my makeup off in the bathroom. "No, I just want to concentrate on myself without any boys interfering. I've been toxic to myself but also to them" I explained as I put my hair in a bun. I walked out of the bathroom and looked at him.
He was nodding, but I could also see he was proud.
"Can I ask you a question?" I said as I sat down next to him. "Yeah?" He said as he raised his eyebrow. "Did my sister do something with Lando during the shoot?" I was kinda expecting him to nod or tell me they did. She was way too secretive about it. "Uhm no they didn't" he just said but he didn't look at me which could only mean two things: he was lying or he was hiding something.
"But were they close? She had a hickey on her neck right after that shoot" he shrugged his shoulders. "Trust me, they are not interested in each other. The guy is in love with you and Sienna didn't seem interested either" he explained.

I nodded as I was thinking. It had to be someone who was there right? It couldn't be from someone she met at a club, she wasn't like that.
I was relieved it probably wasn't Lando but I still didn't understand why she wasn't telling me who it was.
"So there is something I need to tell you" Scott said as he looked at me. He didn't get time to explain because there was a knock on my door. "Wait one minute" I said as I quickly got up and walked to the door. I wasn't expecting anyone nor did I order roomservice.
I opened the door with a smile on my face. "Oh hi Lando" I was actually quite surprised to see him in front of my door.
"I know you said you can't be with me right now but I can't stop thinking about you. I need you yeah but I also love you so fucking much. You think I would forgive someone for cheating if I wasn't completely in love with her?" He was making this so hard. I obviously loved him very much too but I just didn't think it would be a good idea to get back together immediately. He grabbed my hands and looked at me. "Please Avery" he begged. I know he loves me, no one ever showed it the way he does. Just as I was about to give in, he took a step back and let my hand go. "Nevermind. It was stupid" he said as he walked away.
I turned around and looked at Scott confused who just shrugged his shoulders.

Why would he come here and beg to take him back, only to walk away before I could give an answer?