Hardest love 2

36.

Maybe it wasn't a bad idea to talk to Max about what happened but then again, I didn't want to talk to him before I talked to Lando.
He deserved the truth, but I was so scared.

It was actually a fun day, it was late already when we arrived back in his apartment.
I was already laying in bed, scrolling through TikTok and waiting for Lando.
"Did you just?" Lando walked in and pointed at his phone. I know what he was trying to say and the smile on his face didn't hide that he actually liked it.
I nodded with a smile on my face. "I finally announced our relationship" I knew I didn't have to talk to him about it. He wanted to announce it too. It was the first time I posted about us.
I don't know why it took me so long, I don't know why I was afraid.
"So now you're officially mine again?" He said as he crawled on top of me.
One hand was brushing my cheek while he was leaning on his other one.
The veins in his arm were visible, it was so hot. "If you want though" I said softly, it made him chuckle a little.
"Oh no I don't want that at all" he said sarcastically. I guess it was a stupid question anyways.

We cuddled all evening. It was the perfect ending to a beautiful day, until my phone buzzed a few times.

Unknown number:

Where are you?
I haven't seen you around for a few days
I just wanna say sorry for what happened
I really didn't mean to hurt you

I quickly put my phone away. I didn't want Lando to read it.
I obviously knew who it was, I hated myself right now. Why didn't I change my number?
I deleted his number but he clearly didn't do the same.
"Are you okay?" He titled his head a little. I nodded. I wasn't gonna let Nate ruin this day, not this time.

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I don't know why I woke up this early. It was only 8am and how much I wanted to go back to sleep, I couldn't. It was nice to lay in Lando's arms but I didn't want to wake him up so I slowly and softly got out of bed.
I was only wearing one of his oversized hoodies. I liked them, they were so soft and cuddly.
The first thing I did when I woke up was making coffee, like every morning.
I grabbed my phone and looked at Nate's messages. I knew it was bullshit. I've heard this so many times before.
He couldn't control his anger, his jealousy. He didn't change one bit.
I was happy when they told me I had to travel a lot for the job because that meant he couldn't find me.
Not many people knew about his abuse, only Millie did. I never dared to tell Scott, he would probably beat him up.
"Why are you not cuddling me?" Lando's morning voice shook me out of my thoughts.
I quickly looked up at him, he was shirtless and his hands were in the pockets of his jogging pants as he was leaning against the wall.
"I didn't want to wake you" I said with a little smile.
He didn't walk up to me, he just looked at me. It was like he was trying to figure something out.
After what felt like forever, he finally walked to me and kissed my forehead.
"I am gonna stream for a little bit later today. Do you maybe wanna pack our things?" He asked.
He always started packing way too late and we would leave for Spain today. We would fly to Spain on Air Max, which I obviously liked more than going on normal flights.
"Of course baby" I agreed. He kissed my cheek softly before going back to his room.

After I got into the shower and finished packing for the two of us, I walked back to the living room.
I could hear Lando laughing. His laugh was definitely the cutest thing ever.
I sighed a little. I had to tell Max the truth. I needed to get it out of my system. I wanted to trust someone.
I grabbed my phone and quickly texted Lando. I didn't want to disturb him, even though his chat probably wouldn't mind.

Lando 🧡 :

I am going to Max real quick

Why?

I am bored

I can stop streaming if u want?

No no
I will just chill with Max
Don't worry

I walked outside of Lando's apartment and pressed the button on the elevator.
Max's apartment was in the same building, just a couple of floors up.
I knocked on his door, a couple of moments later he opened the door and the look on his face said enough. He knew why I was here, he knew he was right.