Brewing the essence of love

Chapter 11

Koyal's POV

It's been two days from my engagement. These two days were too tiring, my aunt and cousins took me too an endless shopping. At first it was exciting but now its getting irritating. How much can people shop on wedding! Anyways my family and my nani is very much happy with this. From tomorrow my wedding functions are starting.

On my engagement day I so wanted to talk to him, but did not get the chance, I guess my marriage is also gonna be those, 19th century types where the bride and groom talk to each other after their wedding. Aah forget it, let me check my mail. I opened my laptop, then internet browser, then I opened my mail. There was only one new mail in my inbox. As I opened it, my whole world turned around. Like I can't explain how I felt like after reading that mail. I had too many emotions in me. The correct interpretation of my feelings are like those, which Mita explains to Nikhil in the movie Hasee Toh Phasee. That mail developed a number of emotions in me.

The email was to inform me that I had successfully cleared USMLE in my first try. I was getting residency in neuro-ophthalmology. It was exactly the branch and specialization I wanted. When I read this I was over the moon I wanted to shout with happiness. Tell all my family about it. However all my happiness was only for a minute or so only, my eyes went on to the ring in my finger. The diamond in it was shining brightly, it was shining so brightly that it was burning me from within and had brought tears in my eyes.

For me to get that seat of residency, I was required to report to the hospital in the next 15 days, i.e 9~10 days after my marriage. I know everyone said I could study after marriage, but surely not after so less days of my marriage, that too when I was to leave the country for almost 3.5 years.

What should I do? Should I say to Chachu to talk to them? No no I can't cause if I do and my in laws say no which they surely will, then he will live all his life in regret. Chachu is my father, I can't let my father live in such regret. I can tell Adi bhaiya, no he will straight away cancel the wedding....no no I can't cancel this now.

Nani is in last stage of her life. With her situation it's not good to give her shocks. I should bid her a good bye by making her happy in her last days.

Idea!! I will run from the wedding everything will be sort. "What no Koyal, stop watching bollywood films. Point no one you are not Aarti from Shaadi Mein Zaroor Aana. Point no two that was a movie this is a real life. There everyone forgives Aarti, no one will do that here. Plus if you can't cancel the wedding you can't run away from it as well. Ever thought how will Chachu chachi live if you run away? People will put baseless accusations on them, and give them endless taunts. And what about Nani, if you runaway you want even be able to be present on her last rites. What about Vardhaan and his family. You can't put two family's reputation on stake and runaway. Adi bhaiya toh won't even see your face ever. People will call you bhagodi doctor." My own inner self lectured me.

However she is right, it's better to cancel the wedding than running away. But I can't do that as well. The whole city knows about this marriage. Can I do nothing now? I started questioning myself.

"You could Koyal, you could say this to Chachu on the evening he told you about all this. You could before saying yes for this alliance. Had you thought rationally, and not emotionally, you would not be in this situation." My conscience said again

Aaa...why did I not think about the result of this exam before giving my answer. Every time I take decision for others happiness and get stuck in such worse situations. "Can't you think about yourself for once? What was the need to get over emotional listening about nana nani and their last wish?" I scolded myself

The joy of clearing USMLE within minutes vanished from my heart now there was only anger on myself and sadness left in my heart. This achivement of mine was only giving me pain now.I could hear the laughter and joy of my family members preparing for tomorrow's ritual but for the first time their laughter and happiness make me happy. I wanted to but how could I? The biggest dream of my life was going to break forever. I always wanted to go to US for my master's, but now I could never.

I studied so hard since 8th standard, I even studied for 18 hours before my fifth year's exam to score good marks so my final degree mentions me as a gold medalist. I got that in my final degree, I did clear my exams, got my dream subject and specialization, my dream hospital in my dream city. Everything was going so well but fate had to play some dirty joke on me. I had come here to spend my holiday, and here I am getting married. I know it was my own decision I could have waited till my result came but no as always I took a decision in a hush. But such hurry decisions have always been the best decisions of my life. For the first time my choice was not favorable for me. All my life I will live in regret, regret for not even taking a week to take the biggest decision of my life. I did not even realize when I had started crying.

I will marry Vardhaan, I have no choice. But will I ever be happy? Its ok Koyal a lot of people do their PG's from India itself and they are also good doctors, just focus on your marriage for now. I consoled myself.

My night passed with this same consoling and blaming myself, I don't know when sleep engulfed me. The next morning I woke up with puffy and red eyes. I took a nice shower, kept some eye drop to remove the redness and did some make up and met my family with a fake smile, my smile was fake, but it was only for me to know. Chachu did ask me if I was ok and I was looking sad. However I said him it was cause I was sad leaving the house. I was sad because of this reason, but it was not the sole reason. I never wish to tell him the other reason for my sadness. Adi bhaiya also sensed something wrong, but I gave him also the same answer.

In the evening my mami and chachi gave me the clothes for the function of sangeet, I wore them. The entire time I had a fake smile on my face. It was giving me pain from within, but I did not let it come in my face. I guess this is how the rest of my life is going to be.

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Vardhaan's POV

Tomorrow is my sangeet. Honestly I am not very interested in all of this but I kind of want to see her. She looked really happy and excited for this on our engagement. I remember how happily she was talking to Abhi and Kabir about the sangeet. I am looking forward to tomorrow's function. After that I will straight away see her on our wedding which is 5 days from today.

The next whole day went in a blink with me finishing my office work. Soon it was evening. I got ready for the event. Four days to go I said to myself looking at the mirror.

When we reached the location, it was same as hers. I met her family, then after the wait of 10 minutes finally I got to see her. But something was different today. Her smile seemed fake. Unlike the other day, today her smile did not reach her eyes. She looked sad, really sad. There was a sort of gloominess in her face today. What might have happened? Did something happen? Does she not want to marry me? Did someone say something to her?

I wanted to talk to her, but today the elders of both the family did not let us talk. My marriage is seriously turning one like of Dadaji's time, where the bride and groom don't talk before marriage. I just hope everything is fine. 

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