Brewing the essence of love

Chapter 35

(Make sure to read the previous chapter before this.)

Koyal's POV

Today after three and half years of my marriage, I am finally looking at my wedding album for the first time. I wonder if Vardhaan has ever had taken a glance in these. I never looked at my own wedding pictures because some where I was scared, scared that my one decision ruined, my life, Vardhaan's life.

Vardhaan has always been the opposite of what I had thought of him. When I thought that my dream was broken forever and that I clipped my own wings myself, he entered my life and helped me fly higher. He gave me the support, which my own mama, mami, chachi or for a fact even chachu would have never given me. He supported my dream, he fought with his own grandma to help me pursue my dream.

Then when that Rahul misunderstanding happened,  he was so clam with me. He never disrespected me. He listened to me on the first time when I gave him an explanation, even if it was after three years. He has been so patient with me ever since the start. I always felt a little guilty for not putting efforts, for taking advantage of his calm and respectful nature, but after talking to Adi bhaiya I feel that guilt has multiplied by thousand.

Yesterday I said him for that race thing with a hope he would cut me off or be rude with me and tell me that how childish I am expecting a CEO of two successful organization to have a race with me in the middle of the road at night. I hoped him to do so, so that I could pacify myself thinking he is not that good as I think him to be, but I was wrong. He didn't do any such thing. Instead he obliged with me.

Today while talking to Needhi aunty, I realized, what I had lost three years ago. When I went to US I thought my decision to marry Vardhaan was correct, which I still think. So I had thought I have married a good man, got my dream degree, dream job there was nothing to lose.

When I was talking to Needhi aunty I slowly became aware that even if I lost nothing professionally I lost a lot in personal life. When she was talking to me about her earlier days of marriage I could see a different smile on her face. She made me understand the importance of a partner.

Honestly I never knew why marriage was important. I just knew that everyone does it, so should I. However today I understood that having someone with you always is some other type of assurity. That a partner supports us, understands us in every step of life. Something which Vardhaan had always done.

As I was watching our wedding video I noted one thing, I was happy only on my engagement, and Vardhaan seemed a little off only on our engagement. Yet I could see care for me in him. When the video reached our wedding day I saw a different happiness, care and likeness for me in Vardhaan. He was looking happy, hopeful for our future. I could see that he was trying to look at me but I was lost in my own world. I could not see it anymore. I closed it right away.

Now I am feeling guiltier now. Maybe if I had thought better Vardhaan would get someone who would reciprocate to him. Someone whose face would beam with happiness when he would fill her hairline or tie a nuptial chain. Not being able to handle all this I called Payal to meet me.

Me and Payal are at café coffee day right now. "What was so urgent that you made me leave the hospital? I am telling you this better be important cause I need to do a night shift because of this." Payal said. Sighing I told her everything. She looked and me seriously and then said after a while, "You are right Koko, you missed a lot of things, but that was important. Your degree was important as well. If you hadn't gone there and would have been here you would be regretting all your life for your degree and now when you have one you are regretting over your personal life. Koyal you cannot have the best of both the worlds. You need to leave something to gain something. "Jitna bhi try karo Bunny life me kuch na kuch toh chootega hi " 

[no matter how hard you try, you will miss on something in life]

 At that time it was gaining your degree over having a personal marital life was your priority. So now when you have it Stop complaining about what is gone and and try to mend your relationship. You said you are feeling guilty towards Vardhaan. That he deserves someone who would have been there for him someone who would have reciprocated all his feelings. When you know what type of a partner he deserves then why don't you try to be one as such."

"Its been three years now. I am too late." I said. "I know it's late but it's not very late. And to start with none of you wanted this relationship three years ago so why Is it such a big deal ? Stop thinking about the last three years and think about the upcoming 30 years of your life just feel as if you married Vardhan Just a month ago and you are newlyweds." She explained again. I nodded my head.

Later we went to a parlor to pamper myself. I got some nail extensions, mehndi as well. I even bought some beautiful bangles. In the evening I got ready. Just like I had seen my mom, or for a fact Anaya dress after a newly wed. I wore a red saree. My hands were full with marron bangles, lahati to be precise. I parted my hair from middle then braided them. I wore vermillion. I had my nuptial chain along with a light necklace. For the first time I felt like a married woman. Soon Vardhaan came and we went to Mishra uncle's house. We walked till there and it was one of the most beautiful walk I ever had. I could feel Vardhaan's eyes were continuously on me. Within some minutes we reached the house of our host and throughout the evening I could feel his gaze on me. But one thing upset me, he did not compliment me, or say anything other than "Shall we go". He was unusually quiet, throughout the evening.

Vardhaan's POV

When I entered my room and I felt my heart, life and time stop. Koyal was looking absolutely gorgeous. She looked like a newly married girl. I couldn't stop admiring her the entire night. I did not talk much, not trusting my words. What's wrong with me. I have never felt like this looking at any woman.

We reached our house after the dinner. She was going to the closet. "Koyal" I shouted. She looked at me with confusion. I slowly took my phone out then said smile. She was stunned, but I started clicking pictures. After clicking somewhere around 30 pics I said, "This is my first time I saw you dress like this, I had to get a pic." She blushed hearing this. "Do I look nice? Do you like it" She asked me.

Why would she ask me. Could she not guess by my look. And why would I click pictures had I not like it. "Cause she is not a mind reader. And women like hearing compliments idiot." My conscience reprimanded me.

I slowly took my steps, closer to her, "I" again a step closer "don't" a again a step closer "like", I went a little more towards her, "it". When I said it her face fell, she said okay and was about to enter the closet when I held her hand, pulled her a little closer and then said " I don't like it I love seeing this avtar of yours and you look absolutely beautiful and stunning." I said so while caressing her left cheek with my thumb.

"Th....thank you" She shuttered blushing. My heartbeat increased by 10 to the powe 100 looking at her. She looked so lovely, and adorable. She pulled her hand and ran away to the closet while I stood there in a gaze. What is she doing to me? I wonder.

"Looks like we like her Vardhaan. But what was that. You need to stop staring her like a creep." My conscience said. "Shut up, and I am you, so you stop being so reckless around her, and stop gawking her." I said to my inner self. Today was one of the best days of my life.

I can always spend a day like this. I feel me and Koyal are getting somewhat comfortable. I now want to have a future with her. I felt so happy today when I saw her wear the nuptial chain and vermillion. She probably wore it the first time today without any occasion and she looked so preety. Oh my godd I like my wife. I definitely like her.  

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Koyal feeling guilty and Vardhaan has started to develop feelings towards her. 

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