The Mind Of A Wolf

Chapter 28 : The First Mistake

Four Years Ago 

Aprix's POV

I thought everything was going great then, I felt that me and Rain were growing closer by the day. I learned I lot about her old life, she told me of happy memories from her pack and her time with her mate. She surprisingly got along well with my foster father, to the point where me and him started to talking more often. I think that she was a bit clingy to me, afraid that I'll leave her I bet. I didn't mind it though, I thought it was adorable and cute. I didn't think that it would go so wrong. One day I was walking through the halls of the motel and I saw Rain in our room, laid out in our bed.

I smiled and said,"Hey sleepyhead."

I froze and looked in horror. Her milky eyes were rolled to the back of her head, she was breathing heavily and groaning, she was squirming and sweating. I know these symptoms. I've seen the addicts in the town. 

I held her hand and waited by the bed. The only thing I can do it wait, let it leave her system. I tapped my leg worried, I then smoked a cigarette anxiously. Why would she do this? I thought I made her feel safe and loved. I thought she was opening up to me because she didn't want to go through her lost alone. Why?

I thought I knew her then but I knew nothing about her.

A hour pasted and she woke up from her nap. She rubbed her eyes and groaned, she sat up and looked at me unfazed. She said as if nothing happened,"Hello."

I bit my lip and said nothing.

Rain then said,"Oh, right I think I saw you when I was out of it, sorry about that. I haven't done it in a while since I came here so-"

"What is it?"I said lowering my gaze.

She said uncomfortably,"Um it's called Moon Drip I think, I still have a vial or two. Do you want-"

"NO I DON'T WANT ANY!!"I yelled, she jumped in surprise, I then immediately said,"Sorry, I yelled.... It's just I don't understand why?"

Even though her head was facing my direction, it was like she was looking past me with those blind eyes. She took her knife by the table and twirled it, she said slowly,"I wasn't always blind."

I looked up at her as she walked around slowly, she said with her eyes closed,"I was apart of a pack called Snow Fall, a small werewolf pack up north. I was one of the few kids in that pack at the time... They were raiders. Had tattoos of blood moons with swords crossing."

She then sat down on top of me leaning close to my chest and continued,"I remember the fires, bright red. Glowing in the middle of the night, burning the ice away. They killed every single one, leaving no man, women or child alive. I was fourteen then."

Rain gripped my shirt, I held her closer as she said,"Burned and razed to the ground, I was the only survior becuase one of them wanted to play a sick game. Who ever could kill me first would get money or something but being a werewolf child they decided they need a handicap. One of them grabbed a torch they used to burn down our home to burn my eyes."

I gasped in shock, she then touch her burned scar on her eyes, tracing over her forehead and eyes,"I saw my mother and father killed, my friends, everyone...But then my former lover found me half frozen laying on the ground." 

Tears started to form her eyes,"He cared and love me, I loved him so so much. I would do anything for him. We were living a happy normal life in a cabin in the woods but then.. The people from that group of raiders found us. Apparently one of them spotted me at a human market with my mate. I left for a bit, I finally got my wolf at the age of fifteen so I was out on a run. When I came back I found him dead."

She began laughing while crying into my shoulder,"I thought he was asleep at the time, even though he was covered in blood. I felt so much pain, I awoken my powers at that time too. To manipulate the shadows."

She held out her hand and shadows darken and swirled around her hand,"I killed them all except for one who came in later. He had blood glowing red eyes, he apologized for his people. I wanted to kill him the most, those emotionless eyes, as if he knew what pain was like. I wanted to kill him so bad but I couldn't, he had the same powers as me and years of more experience. He left me alive, all alone with my mate's corpse."

I wanted to say something, anything to comfort her but I couldn't form any words. I didn't know how I could.

"After I burned and killed anyone I could find connected to this group, I found their name, Blood Soul,"She said emotionless now. Rain looked up at me and said,"I have a name formed around me through out this year.. The Scorned One."

"Rain..."I held out my hand and touched her face softly. She looked away and said,"I do this to escape that pain, Aprix. All this time I wanted it all to end, I know I'm just as bad as anythother junkie but I need this... It hurts so much to lose someone you loved so so much. And to do it, again, and again."

She gripped her chest,"I can't take it."

The atmosphere around Rain changed, she leaned closer to me and said,"I'll do whatever you want. I don't want you to leave me. Common I know there's something you want me to do."

She became... Different. She was pouting but it was wrong. She began kissing my neck slowly, She then told me,"I can't have you leave me. I need you. Please, I can and will do anything you want."

I growled and pushed her off me, she land on the floor with a tud sound. Rain said while pulling on her clothing,"Do you want my body? I can give you-"

I grabbed her and pinned her against the wall, I bit my lip so hard blood came out. I asked her trembling,"What are you talking about? I don't need anything like that from you. I love y-"

"You love me?"She said dropping her hands emotionless again,"People say that again and again."

She then slammed the wall yelling,"Again! And Again!"

She grabbed my shirt and pulled me close and said,"You love me? Then show me. Care and support me only when I need you, stop meddling with things beyond your understanding!"

I wanted to say something but I was crying now, I let her go and touched my cheeks. Why? Why am I crying? Do I feel sad for her? Do I feel scared?

I pulled on my hair and whispered subconsciously,"I don't know."

Rain wiped a tear from my eye,"Don't cry, I'm will always be there for you. I told you I need you. You complete me."

Something felt wrong about this. Some felt so wrong and unnatural it hurts my heart. I said,"Where's the box?"

She took out a black box under the bed, I opened it to see needles and syringes, masking tape and everything else. She looked at me with concern. I gritted my teeth and gave the box back.

"You can... Have it"

She said,"Yay!!"She jumped up like a little girl, she gave me a small kiss on the cheek,"I knew I can count on you Aprix!!"

She put the box back under the bed, I tried to smile and said,"Let's go downstairs, okay?"

She smiled and nodded happily hold my hand as we went down.

This was my first mistake