The Mind Of A Wolf

Chapter 35 : Revelations

Vix's POV

I was still a bit groggy from my nap, I yawned,"Sorry can you repeat that again?"

"We need to talk,"Rain said, she was siting on the coffetable in front of me looking completely serious. She took off her blind fold to reveal milky clouded lifeless eyes, she was frowned a bit hesitating to speak.

I sat up and took her hand and said concerned,"What's wrong?"

She pulled away and said slowly,"I'm going to die in a few days."

Silence filled the room as looked at her with dread, I began laughing to myself, I said,"Your joking right?"

Rain was silent, she was looking down with blind eyes. I said with disbelief,"Wait what? How? This doesn't-"

"My powers to copy other people's powers and used them with out any restriction turned out to have it's limits. The doctor said my body is slowly decaying and is right now in it's final days. I could've lived I a bit longer if I had not used my powers anymore but..." She stood up and looked away with shame.

"I didn't want to feel useless, like I was before. I didn't want others to protect me, to-"

I laughed again, I put my hand on her shoulder for support, I said,"So you knew about something this serious and didn't think to tell me? Even if you were a selfish wolf, you could at least been an honest one."

I walked away saying,"Gods, you never changed did you? Always keeping secrets, always trying to harm yourself in the most foolish ways. This is just like the time you wouldn't tell me you were on those damm pills Rain!!"

I walked back and pointed at her angrily,"All I'd ever done was try and help you, to care for you, to love you. So why do you keep lying to me like this? Don't you dare say it's to protect me becuase I know it's not."

I walked closer to her as she walked back, I then said in a sneering tone,"What is this, is the The Mind Of A Wolf? Or just the soul of a foolish wolf who can't seem to grasp the concept that people care about her, a wolf who is such a coward who can't seem to love others..."

I didn't finished that sentenced, Rain said with guilt,"I... I really don't know how to love others. I know I said that to you but I really do want to love you. I care about you, my friends, my people, everyone is like family to me. I really have been using the death of my pack as and excuse to push everyone way becuase I... I am afraid of people getting hurt becuase of me."

"But you do hurt me, Rain," I leaned closer and glared at her,"You may try to learn about love but you'll never achieve it, you know why Rain? Becuase love is about trust, you broke that trust every time I come back to try and help you."

My eyes began to water as I trembled,"I keep coming back to you Rain every time becuase I believed that you deserved to live a life of happiness, you out of all people should be happy. I saw that you went through pain like I have and I wanted to show you that you could live with that pain and still truly live. But you have been lying, decieving and tricking me every time I tried to help you but no more."

I pulled up my hair and said crying,"I don't know... What am I suppose to feel now!?! I hate you for always hurting me and everyone around you, but your dying now so I..."

I fell to my kness and said sobbing,"Why are you doing this to me? We were going to be happy, being happy was the one thing I dream of and I wanted to be happy with you."

She was silent while I cried, she knelt down and hugged me softly, tears formed in her eyes, she said softly as if she was in pain,"I'm sorry Vix, I really am."

Sorry? Sorry about lying? Sorry for not telling me the truth? Sorry for show up in my life?

I cried as I thought about this insufferable thoughts, I said in a whispher,"Why couldn't you be happy with me?"

I pulled away as she gave no answer, I wipped away my tears faster than they could be formed, I said sniffling,"I don't want to talk to you right now. I need time to thinking, don't come and find me."