Loving A Thug Ain't Easy

Hello

It has almost been a year that Jayceon was in a coma. I got up and started my usual routine. Since Jayceon been in a coma I been doing everything to make sure me and my baby good. Twan always there when I need him as well as Tia. Twan still ran the business as usual.

Going to the kitchen I made breakfast for me and Xyla before I woke her up.

On the menu today was turkey bacon, cheesy eggs, and grits.

"Wake up stinky." She started yawning and making a little noise.

"It's okay pookie pooh." Doing this alone was hard even though I get help from my grandparents and Tia at the end of the day she still mine. Jay not here to help me so basically I'm a single parent.

"You eat pooh?" I asked her she just crawled into my arms. We went into the kitchen and I sat her in her high chair. I had to get most of our things shipped back to Chicago. Although we still have the house I haven't been out there since the shooting happened.

My phone rung I quickly picked it up.

Tia- You going to the hospital today?

Me- Yeah.

Tia- You won't me to get Pooh so you can get a break?

Me- Naw I'm iight. I think I'm gone drop her off to Tina later she asked for her.

Tia- Let's go to dinner tonight.

Me- Okay I'll call you later I'm about to put her in the tub.

Tia- Okay love ya bye.

We hung up and I went to run Xyla bath water.

I picked her out something to wear and then myself.

"Ma we go see dada?" Xyla asked splashing in the water. Each day I spend with her I want to break down and cry she remind me so much of Jayceon. She don't really understand what's going on but she know who her dad is. I've been really praying that he wakes up before her first birthday.

"Yes stinky we going to see him then you going over gran-gran house." She call Jay mom that. I love the fact that she have Tina around to tell her about her dad.

"Xyla come on let me wash you up so we can get going."

"No mommy I stay."

"Xyla let's go." She got up and handed me her towel and I washed her up with some Johnsons baby wash and got her out. We headed towards her room. I put lotion on her and then her clothes. I retwisted her ponytails and put her down for a nap.

Once she was sleep I went to take my shower. In the shower is where I think the most. I washed up with my pink chiffon body wash and got out the shower. I was home alone as always so I didn't put a towel on I just brushed my teeth and defused my curls. I decided to wear some black leggings some mikes and a Biggie shirt. I looked at myself in the mirror and sprayed a little body mist on.

I walked in Xyla room and grabbed her and got her book bag. We headed to the car. After I strapped her in I got in the drivers seat and opened the garbage.

When I arrived to the hospital I was greeted by the nurses. I was on first name bases with a few of them from me being there so much.

As usual I walked in gave him a kiss and then let Xyla. The doctors came in and checked on a few things and left out. I turned the TV to cartoons for Xyla and put her in the hospital bed next to her dad. Soon she feel asleep so I went to the hallway to call Tina and let her know I was about to bring Xyla. As I was preparing to leave I heard something move make a noise I turned and noticed it was the machines. I ran over and grabbed my baby as the nurse and doctors ran over to his bed side. I realized he was woke when the doctor shined a light in his eye and he turned his head so it wouldn't directly in his eye. My baby was woke!