I don't know, if I love you too (g!p H. YJ x female reader)[ Kang Julia]

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Julia's pov
6months later

I'm coming back home today since I was in therapy for a long time and could be barely home so Yunjinnie was alone most of the time.

I usually didn't wanted to go to therapy, but my friends, Yunjin and my mom and stepdad wanted me to go there and to be honest, it was a good decision because I could move on from what happened and I'm really happy to see all of them again.

My mom and Andy married a few months ago and I was able to attend, and I'm happy for my mom and to know that Andy is my stepdad. He also told me that it's my decision if I call him by his name or dad, since I'm old enough to decide this, and it's good to know.

So now I will surprise Yunjin and her family at our house because she dont know that I'm done with therapy and can go back to school and all.

I've bought food for all of us and Yunjin's favourite flowers in my hands. Tomorrow I will go to my moms house and ask my friends and Yunjin to come over there too so they all can spend time with me.

So I walk inside, everything getting quiet now and they all look at me "Julia?" Yunjin ask and walk slowly to me.

She put her hands on my waist and I smile "Do I have a twin or why do you ask me if it's me. Ofcourse it's Julia, idiot. Who else have keys to our house?" I ask her and slap her shoulder slightly in a teasing way.

She pull me in a tight hug and I hug her back. I pull away and show her her favourite flowers, which are dahlias, but yeah they're really pretty to be honest, same to Yunjin because she's really really pretty.

"Here, I bought them for you" I say and look at the flowers first, then up to her and she was smiling.

"Thank you" she say and kiss me on my head and I just smile.

We walk into the livingroom where Yunjinnie's family is "heey" I say happily and put the bags on the coffeetable because it's alot.

"You're here. Yunjin didn't want to tell us why you weren't here for a long time" her mother say and I look at Yunjin.

I guess she didn't told them because she dont know if I would want people to know, but they're basically my family too so they can know.

"I was in therapy and wasn't home all the time. I'm out of therapy now and can go back to school and be home every day" I say and open the bags so we can all eat and talk.

"Its good to know you're out of it and better. Why were you in therapy?"

"My father and sister were bad to me. Like they were all my life but the time I wasn't in therapy was so bad that I wanted to end my life. I survived but I was missing for around 3 days till my stepdad found me. But I'm better now and I don't care what my father and sister have to say. I have a restraining order against them so if they come near me or on my and Yunjin's property then I will call my stepdad over and they get worse punishment. My stepdad is a police so yeah, he knows alot" I say and all of them take forks and chopsticks and all of us start to eat.

"We knew that your father and sister treated you bad, but not as bad as that, that they got you so far to trying to end your life and all. I just hope you know, that if you want to talk that we all are there for you, even if it's over phone. Don't hesitate to open up to any of us" her mom said and they all nod what's really sweet.

"That's sweet. I know that yall are here for me. Yunjin is for me all those years but I couldn't really open up because its hard to do, you know? My therapist said if I need to talk and don't want to talk to any of my friends or family members that I can talk to her. So she probably will be the first one and then some of you will know too" I tell them since that's probably what I'm gonna do.

Yunjin and I went into my room after a bit because she let her siblings sleep at her room because she wouldn't want them to sleep in my room, what I kind of appreciate that she thinks in that way.

She's having her hands on my waist, because I've took a seat on her lap and look down to her because she's just so beautiful.

"Did anything happen those 6 months I wasn't really here?" I ask, maybe she do have some tea to spell since I was having a boring life for 6 months.

"Not really. Working, thinking how you are doing in therapy. I also dated a few times to get you kind off my mind, but they were all not my type" she say and it shocked me a little.

"Getting me off your mind in what exact way? You wanted to forget me?" I tease her a little and she start to blush a little.

She pull me in a hug and rest her cheek on my shoulder "not in such way. Julia, you're the reason I don't want to date. I want you, you're the one I want to date. You're understanding, you treat me good, with all your love and attention you have. I don't care if other girls can give me this too, but I want it from you, and only you. I love you for a long time, not as bestfriend, but in a way more meaningful way. I don't want to be called your 'bestfriend' or kind of like 'older sister', I want to be more than that. I just hid it from you for a long time now" she looks at me as she confessed her feelings towards me.

"Oh, I know that I can be a good girlfriend though. You're pretty obvious with your feelings dummy, I know that too. Do you know how often Eomma or Andy said I should start date you because I would be good for you and to you? We had this talk so often. I was 6 months away, I only thought about you and I think I have a little crush, but I want to let you know that a little crush isn't enough to be in a relationship, you know? I don't want this crush to go while we would be in a relationship  because I don't want to hurt your feelings. You deserve to be loved and I hope that I can show you this anytime soon when I'm inlove with you just the way you are inlove with me. I don't want that our relationship ends in a way that only one of us give our all and that probably would be you if we start a relationship now. I hope you understand that this take a little more time, but I will let you know about my feelings, okay?" I say, because ofcourse she don't know that I got a little crush on her, but she knows now and I hope she is happy knowing that I like her a little in this way too.

"I understand. This was not planned that I will just tell you my feelings out of nowhere"

"Yes, but if you didn't you wouldn't know how I feel so it was kind of good. Next time you won't be this obvious about your feelings, hm? Most bestfriends end contact after knowing the other one have feelings" I cup her cheeks and caress them and she smile, cheeks red because of how embarrassed and shy she is.

"There won't be a next time. I won't hide it anymore how much I love you. But just... please don't tell anyone? This is kind of embarrassing" she look down and I chuckle.

"I think it's cute, but I won't tell anyone. Btw, I thought since your family is here and probably stay for a bit that I'll be at my mother's house so here's enough space for ya-"

"No, I want you to stay with me. Do you know how much I missed you? I missed you alot and I'm happy to see you again, so please don't leave and stay with me so I can finally sleep with you together again after half a year. This was painful when I came home without you around or something. It made me feel lonely like I have no one" she pout a little and I kiss her forehead since I don't want to give her a kiss on her lips, I want to kiss her on her lips when we're in a relationship and won't rush things now.

"Wuah, you're cute, but okay I stay, only for you so we can cuddle and all" she nod happily and hugs me again, hiding in my neck and I think it's cute how happy she just is knowing I'm out of therapy and all fine again.

I hold tightly onto her because I missed her alot too and love that we can spend time together again after a long time.