Apodyopsis: Built for sin (GxG)

Apodyopsis-BFS 13

Rivianna Avril Samonte

"Hey! Avril!"

Nabalin ang mukha ko sa kaliwa habang madiin na nakapikit ang mga mata ko. I attempted to open my eyes, but something was keeping them shut.

This can't be real.

"Rivianna!"

Mabilis na hinarap ang mukha ko sa kanan. Napakunot ang noo ko ng sobra. Hindi ko na nga alam kung saan ibabalin ang ulo ko ata habang patagal ng patagal nauubusan na rin ako ng hininga. I extended my right arm as if trying to grasp for something.

I want something to hold ont-

"Avril!"

My eyes widened as I sat up and grabbed the first thing in reach with both of my hands. Hinahabol ko ang aking hininga, ramdam ko rin ang pagtulo ng pawis ko mula sa noo.

My senses were suddenly recovered when I felt a soft hand gently stroking both of my cheeks.

"Everything is fine, you're fine. Now, I need you to concentrate on your breathing." I turned to face the person who was stroking my cheeks and trying to calm me down. There I encountered a set of eyes that I was used to seeing staring at me as if I were nothing, but now it was different. There's a slightly a hint of worry.

Right, I forgot. I'm here in her room.

Nalipat ang tingin ko sa kamay kong mahigpit na nakawahak sa bandang kwelyo niya.

"Look straight into my eyes." Napa-angat ang tingin ko sa mga mata niya. "Take a deep breath, slowly." She instructed me and she did the breathing pattern.

Napansin ko na lang ang sarili na sumusunod sa mga inuutos niya. I inhale and exhale a couple more times till my breathing becomes steady.

"You okay now?" I nodded.

Napa-iwas ako ng tingin dahil nakaramdam ako ng hiya at dahan-dahan ko na rin binitawan ang damit niya.

"Sorry."

She gazed at me for a few seconds, checking to see if I was all right. She sighed heavily before standing. "I'll bring you some water."

​"Wag na." Agad na pagpigil ko dahil masiyado ko na siyang naaabala. "Okay na ko. Just go back to sleep. Thank you."

Tinitignan lang niya ako na para bang sinusukat kung sa-sang ayon ba siya sa sinasabi ko.

"Okay na ko. Look!" I flexed my muscles in my right arm, trying to convince her that I was okay. "See?" I smiled widely at her.

Umiling lang ito bago ako talikuran at sumampa pabalik sa kama niya. Nang makita kong nakahiga na siya ulit ay napabuntong hininga ako. Shit! She saw me in this state! Wala na, I've lost my cool. I suddenly feel like I've turned into a weak crap in her eyes.

Sinubukan ko na ulit humiga. Hindi ko alam kung anong oras na pero panigurado masyado pang maaga para gumising. I made an effort to close my eyes and go back to sleep. But my dreams return whenever I close them. Tumagilid ako pakanan at pinikit lalo ang mga mata, baka sakaling makatulog ako. I even tried to clear my mind, but I couldn't stop seeing my nightmare from earlier.

Dumiretso ulit ako ng higa at napatingin sa kisame bago tumingin sa kama kung nasaan si Leoncé. Okay lang naman siguro? I'll try it once, pag humindi siya bahala na, hindi ko na ipipilit.

I sat up and looked to see whether she was awake, but all I saw was her back to me. I stood up and tried to wake her up. "Leoncé." She turned around and stared at me. Oh so gising pa rin pala siya. "Pwedeng tumabi? Masakit kasi sa likod kahit naka carpet ako." I raised my right hand. "Promise, wala akong gagawing iba. If I do something you don't like, you can kick me out right away."