Apodyopsis: Built for sin (GxG)

Apodyopsis-BFS 36

Rivianna Avril Samonte

"I'm not saying you're crazy. It just-."

"Mom!" I cut her off. Ayaw ko na marinig pa ang sasabihin ni mom. Alam ko na ang patutunguhan nito.

Hindi ako makapaniwala na si mom pa ang magsasabi sa'kin na magpatingin. I thought she understands me? Then why?

"Do you trust me?" Mom locked her gaze on me. She's not mad at all; she's just staring at me thoughtfully. Telling me to believe her.

I know I can trust mom. Hindi naman dapat tinatanong 'yan. I'm just shocked. But I know mom, she was just concerned about me. Pero hindi ko pa rin maiwasan na magtampo sa kaniya, na mabigla dahil siya pa mismo nagtanong. It was always mama.

"I trust you, mom but..." I paused, hindi alam kung gagawin ko ang sinabi niya. Tumango siya ng bahagya para iparating na ipagpatuloy ko ang sinasabi ko. "I have no problem, I'm pretty fine."

"At least try?"

"No, mom. Please? Just trust me on this." Nangungusap ang mga mata nang tignan ko siya.

Mom sighed. "Do you really love her?"

I nodded continuously. "Yes, mom! I like her a lot." I smile at her as I think about Vérene. "I'm like you, mom! I found someone who can tame the beast inside me. She's just like mama!" Tuwang-tuwa na habol ko.

Instead of saying something to me, she patted my head gently and smiled.

"Mom?" I asked as I watched her stand up.

"I'm always here, sweetheart. I trust you on this one, mmm?" She leaned towards me and gave me a kiss on my forehead. "I just hope that's love."

Nagtataka na pinanood ko siyang lumabas ng kwarto.

"It is." Bulong ko sa sarili.

Maybe she thought that I was confused about my feelings towards Vérene. I'm sure of it na love 'tong nararamdaman ko. I will prove it to you mom na tulad mo nahanap ko na yung para sa'kin. Like how you have mama now. The only cure for the likes of us, mom.

After ng usapan namin ni mama kanina pa ako hindi mapakali sa kama ko. Panay ang baling ko sa kanan at kaliwa. I couldn't figure how I would position myself. I should've been sleeping by now pero eto ako ngayon, mulat na mulat ang mga mata and I don't fucking know why.

"Ugh!" Mabilis akong napa-upo sa sobrang inis ko.

Matutulog na nga lang puro Vérene pa sumasagi sa utak ko. How can I sleep like this?

I stood up with only one thing in my mind. It is that to go to Vérene's house. Kumuha lang ako ng jacket ko sa may cabinet at agad na sinuot. Just like before, I carefully went out of my room and made sure that no one was in the living room. Dumungaw ako mula sa taas at dahan-dahan bumaba at iniiwasang makagawa ng kahit anong ingay. I just breathe normally when I am totally out of the house.

Kagat-labi na tinahak ko ang bahay ni Vérene hoping na this time kausapin na niya ako.

I looked at the time first before exiting my car. She must still be awake as it was only 11 o'clock. Pagbaba ko ng sasakyan sakto naman na may huminto na sports car sa harap nila. I had to wait for a bit before a familiar face emerged from that fancy vehicle. It's Vérene and that ugly guy again.