Falling For The Right One, A Hogwarts Fanfic Love Story

Regrets

*Alicias POV*

My eyes slowly opened as light filtered into the window.
I rubbed my eyes and confusion  momentarily at my surrondings.
Until I remembered I was in the cabin Seb had taken me too.
The popping sound of grease sizzling and the smell of eggs and sausage wafted from the kitchen.
Seb was shirtless bending over the wood stove concentrating on the food he was cooking.
The golden highlights in his brown hair shined in the light.
His tan skin covered his well developed muscles that were much more pronounced than Ominis's were.
"Ali if you keep looking at me like you want me for breakfast I can make that happen. He smiled as he teased me.
A blush crept onto my face,
I had missed waking up to him. Things with Seb had always been so easy and natural. It was as if we were on the same wave length.
Guilt slowly creeped up into my heart and mind.
Ominis would be destroyed if he knew what had occured between Seb and I last night.
Any appetite I had prior completely vanished,
Tears started to spill from my eyes.
Seb looked at me and his face filled with concern.
"Ali why are you crying?"he pulled the pan off the woodstove and set it onto the hot plate. Before making his way towards me, I pushed myself away from him and recoiled when he attempted to touch me.
"Last night was a mistake Sebastian a stupid mistake. I can't believe I let myself fall into bed with you again. Anger rushed through my veins mixed in with the guilt that was already there.
How dare you use my moment of vulneralbility to get under my skirt!" My voice dripping with rage.
"Ali no you can't place this just on me, you never stopped and you never said no.
We did this together you don't get to act like you didn't enjoy it." His face turned into a scowl.
"Sebastian I expected you to be the friend I needed and you used that against me. I might have very well been willing, but you should have never kissed me." I throw my clothes on and walke out of the cabin.
I wanted to shift in my animagus but right now I had no one I trusted to give my wand for safe keeping.
"Run away Alicia you can try all you want but you will always be dragged back to me!"Sebastian shouted out the door before he slammed it. The tears blurred my vision as I ran away from that cabin from Sebastian away from the night we shared.
I stumbled over a root and fell to the ground.
Dirt and mud caked onto my dress, how could I be so weak, my heart shattered to pieces over both of them.
I didn't deserve either of them, I got back up wiping my eyes and made my way back to Hogwarts.
I apparated into my room quickly and than into the washroom.
Cleaning the dirt and sin off my skin,I tried scrubbing Sebastians touch that felt like it was imprinted on my skin.
I didn't know what to do,
Ominis and I promised there would no longer be any secrets between us.
But I knew he would be devistated if I told him Sebastian and I had been intimate.
As much as I have been doubting our courtship I was not ready to end things between us.
How could he ever forgive me for this?
I knew I had classes today but I had no will to go to them.
I put on a clean dress and cloak and apparated to the boat house. Sighing with relief when there was no sign of Ominis.
I slowly made my way to the small room full of so many memories of Ominis and I.
Pushing open the door there was a letter addressed to me.
I could recognise Ominis's elegant handwriting anywhere.
My hands trembled as I opened it.

Dear Alicia
I want to deeply apologise for offending you earlier today, I never meant to insinuate that you were weak, you could move mountains if you wanted too.
But in the time that I have gotten to know you, I have noticed that you care and do so much for others that you often forget to take care of yourself.
I want to be the person you can depend on to take care of you.
I love you so very much and sometimes I let that get the better of me and I worry too much.
I will try my best to worry less as I know you are both strong and intelligent and can protect youself without any help
I hope you can find it in your heart to forgive me.
           Devotedly yours,
                                Ominis Gaunt

Tears began to spill again down onto the parchment in my hands, leaving wet bloches on it.
I knew I needed to tell him, if I didn't eventually Sebastian would use it to prove that I was still his.
Ominis did not deserve that kind of humiliation.
I placed the letter back into the envelope and tucked it into my satchel.
I was tempted to confess to him in a letter as at least I wouldn't have to see his face when he was informed of my betrayal.
But I knew it would be the cowards way out.
I sat outside on the dock watching the waves crash into it.
Anxiety filled me knowing Ominis would eventually come back here to see if I had gotten the letter.
I sighed and prepared myself.
Not to long after familiar footfalls made it down to where I sat.