Falling For The Right One, A Hogwarts Fanfic Love Story

Nature

*Alicia POV*

I stared out at the lake watching the water turn into small ripples of waves. The lake was calm today. I sat against the boathouse wall with books surronding me.
My mind however worked against me as I tried to study.
I had been anxiously waiting for an owl from the Auror Longbottom, he said he would send word but I had not recieved anything.
The school had kept things quiet about Azalias murder, I could still see her bloody face when I returned to that moment.
I did not like her but she did not deserve to meet her end in that horrific way.
Sighing I tossed the book open in my hands back into my book bag.
I was dissapointed in myself as well my mind always drew back to Ominis even though he was the least important thing on my mind.
It stung to see his arms around her, how they smiled at one another it made my stomach twist in knots.
How casual he was acting knowing he was stabbing a knife into my heart with every smile he bestowed upon her.
Sebastian was twisted in his own ways, but it was never fully calculated and intentional when he had hurt me.
He just didn't think of others feelings until after,
Ominis however knew what he was doing. His every strike meaningful and thought out, it was like he was punishing me for being with Anne.
I needed a distraction my mind was all over the place I glanced over at the forest and the longing overtook me to go explore it. The ministry had swiftly rid the poachers that had invaded it.
Before second guessing my decision I apparated to the edge of the forest quickly hiding my book bag into a bush I quickly pointed at my heart feeling the change take me.
Carefully I nudged my wand into the bush as well before I made my way into the woods.
The sounds invaded my senses first I could hear the birds singing and the scampering sounds of the paws of the beasts that called the forbidden forest home. I veered away from the caves not wanting to visit the place that held me a captive.
I made my way to a little clearing and sank down into the grass, engulfing myself in nature.
I could see why some wizards and witches let their animagus fully take over, life was simpler as an animagus. If I stayed in my form I would no longer have to worry about anyone but myself.
My thoughts were quickly interupted as a cloaked man appeared next to me.
"You haven't triggered the medallion yet Alicia.
His deep voice drawled out from under his hood.
I take it that you are still thinking about my offer, take your time Alicia but my patience wains and I might be moved to push you in my direction." He apparated leaving as fast as he came.
Getting up I made my way back to the castle,I was mildly uncomfortable that he seemed to always know where I was.
He didn't make it easy to trap him I was tempted to summon him to the ministry but figured he would be smart enough to forgo coming once he located where I was.
My stomach churned realising that he might have put a tracker spell on the medallion he gave me, I would need to leave it somewhere safe and hidden.
I quickly transfigured and withdrew my wand and bag from the bush and made my way inside.
I rushed my way into my dorm room and quickly shut the door behind me. Crossing over to the window I quickly nudged a brick out with my finger, I placed the medallion inside and carefully slid the block back in.
I fell into my bed a sigh escaping my lips.I traced patterns in the ceiling above me, trying to calm my nerves how I wished I could be a normal student with average power. With only tests and studies to worry about, instead I had to worry about saving others and being responsible for the powers I held.
My mind wandered to the last time I saw Ominis anger surged through me like fire, I wasn't going to let him drag me into another love triangle. He needed to let me go I no longer wanted to be ensnared in his web any longer. Watching them together tore open any wounds left on my heart, I was done with his games he chose Anne he needed to be true to her.
If what they had was worth losing the love we shared it was time for him to fully cut things off with me.
I quickly exited my dorm and made my way to the coaches I would often find Ominis reading in a chair that was tucked into a corner down in the dungeons.
My anger rising with each footstep. Ominis glanced up his face full of uncertainty as he placed his book aside and stood up.
I quickly made my way to him and slapped him hard across his face the sound of it reverbarated against the stone walls. Shock quickly crossed his face as he had not expected it from me.
"How dare you Ominis, how dare you play with my feelings as if they were yours to play with?
You lost any right to me when you chose her, my voice filled with venom. You have no business dictating who I can or can't spend my time with. But to set things straight I am not having an affair with Xavior he has been helping me in my quest to fight against the pure. I also am using him in order to get more information out of him about his brother. But I did sleep with him before finding out he was to be the headmaster. He salved the wounds you inflicted onto me.
Or did you forget how you ripped my heart apart? It's time for you to erase any feelings you have left for me. You chose her Ominis you chose the love you two used to have over the love between us. Which only proves that you didn't love me as much as I loved you, I will not be the girl who will ever be okay with being someones second option. And yet I have let you do that to me twice, I won't tell Anne how you kissed me this time but if you ever do anything like that again I will not keep it from her."
I began to walk away forcing the tears back and away from falling down my face, he would never see me cry over him ever again.
"Alicia he cried out his voice rippled with emotion, I never meant for any of this to happen. I stopped but refused to turn around. My heart pounded in my chest as his words spilled from his mouth. You say I never loved you as much as you loved me, but you are wrong I love you to the point that I did not care if it consumed me.
I should have been more of a man when it came to telling you of why I picked Anne. I was selfish Alicia, with you there was no gurantees that we would last. It scared me that I couldn't see a future with you, not that I didn't want a future with you.
I wanted a future with you more than anything. But I fear I would end up holding you back from living the life you were destined for. You are not a woman who can settle for being a wife and a mother and some run of the mill career. You are meant to do great things you are meant to change the wizarding world, you can't do that if you were wed to me if you had the responsibility to children.
We would be a deadweight to you.
So I picked Anne because I knew we would eventually find the love we shared that she left behind when she left to America. I knew she would be happy being a wife and a mother to our kids and nothing more as that is always what she had wanted. I can see a future with her where I am in love and happy even if the love I have for  her is a flicker of a candle compared to the love that burns me like an out of control fire that I have for you.
I was a self sacrificing coward in my choice, but I will never take it back. I will suffor willingly knowing my heart will never be complete now that you are no longer mine. You deserve more than I can ever dream to offer you."
I could tell he had sat back down and I glanced back seeing him sunken into the chair looking at the floor. Even now I wanted to comfort him the pull I felt for him was slowly taking over. "Ominis I have been looking for you everywhere it's almost curfew, a soft voice fell upon us from the opposite hallway I quickly spelled myself invisible and pressed myself up against the wall. I watched as Anne skipped over to him. She stopped when she noticed he had not looked up when he noticed her presense. Omi is everything okay? as she draped herself into his lap tangeling her arms around him.
I wanted to be anywhere but here but Anne was smart she would know instantly if someone was here. If any unusual sound occured, Omi please talk to me? Did your parents send another letter? I know they are upset that you and Alicia are no longer courting, I know that was one of the reasons you picked me. Your parents wanted her power, they wouldn't be upset otherwise. I know you are in pain, it's always lurking in the back of your eyes. I know you would have picked her if your family wasn't a threat.
It's been a bitter potion to know you will never love me the way you love Ali. You are the only man I have ever loved it hurts knowing you are in love with someone else.
That you dream of her, that your mind is constantly on her.
I am also in pain Ominis, knowing I will forever be in her shadow. We can either wallow in our self enduced heartbreaks for the rest of our lives.
Or we can begin us anew and rebuild our love, and with time anything will pale in comparison to our love."
He leaned into her and wrapped his arms around her waist.
"You are right Annie like always he smiled at her, lets get to the commons before we get in trouble."
He carefully manuvered her to his side and moved past me without her noticing me.
My mind was a chaotic mess I didn't even know where to begin with the conversation I had just heard.
Anger,confusion,doubt,guilt overwhelmed me. I wanted a drink so badly, remembering I had stashed a bottle down here in one of the broom closets.
I pulled myself away from those thoughts and apparated to the 6th floor tower as I opened the door a pair of glacier blue eyes met mine.
Xavior Black how did he manage to come to me in my weakest moments. It made me a little uneasy as I didn't fully trust him.