A Blast From The Past (Jungkook FF 21+)

chapter 11

JK pov

I haven't felt like this in years since Y/n left Seoul. Today I had a meeting with her and it would be just the two of us. I made sure Taehyung would entertain Jane, and I was positive he would be happy to oblige, from what I've gathered, watching the two of them interacting with each other.
The knock on the door snapped me out of my thoughts.
"Sir, Miss Lee is here to see you." I urged Secretary Cha to invite her in and asked her that I wouldn't want to be disturbed for any reason.
"Hey, Kookie. Good morning." Now I could finally say it's a good morning.
"Hey, you." I replied, giving her my bunny smile. I kept thinking about last night and how I wished I could wake up next to her, like we used to, and hold her, wrapped up in my arms, the whole night.
At one point, I saw her waving her hand in front of my face.
"Oh, sorry, I got distracted." I brushed my thoughts away.
"Hopefully, nothing bad." She asked, concerned.
"No, on the contrary, something really good." I placed my palm on her cheek, and she rested her head, closing her eyes. I was getting used to this, and just the thought of her leaving again was making me hopeless. We took our seats, and she sat opposite to mine.
"Let me get your chair closer. You're too far away." I said, pouting my lips at her, and she couldn't help but smile at me. I was glad I was still able to make her smile.
"You're beautiful when you smile, you know that?!" She was the most beautiful thing I had ever laid eyes upon, and if she gave me a chance, I would remind her every day.
"Kookie, don't start with it. I'm trying to be professional here, but you're making it hard for me." She replied, shaking her head.
"You're making me hard... i mean, making it hard for me, too." I smirked at her.
"You're such a tease, you!" She slapped my arm playfully.

Y/n pov

"Jungkook, would you stop it?!"
I was trying to focus, but it was all in vain. He kept brushing his finger up and down my arm as I spoke.
"I ain't doing anything." He replied, feigning innocence.
"Believe me, if I were doing what I'm thinking about doing, we wouldn't be talking about work right now." And then added.
"Don't Jungkook me when we're alone, lovey. I feel like I'm getting scolded, for some reason." I couldn't help but laugh at that because I used the same tone of voice when I scolded Jung Hee, and at the thought of him, my smile faded away.
Jungkook noticed my mood swing, and I saw he was struggling to ask me something.
"Y/n, can I ask you something...personal." I expected such a question would arrive sooner or later, but that doesn't mean I was prepared for it.
"Yeah, sure." I said, uncertain on where this conversation was headed.
"Are you seeing anyone right now? I mean..." He didn't know how to continue.
"I know you told me yesterday that you haven't been intimate with anyone, but I was curious and... really jealous. Okay, I'm fucking losing my mind here." He spurted out altogether.
"There, I said it." He took both of my hands in his and placed a soft kiss on each of them.
"If we're being totally honest here..." He urged me to continue.
"If I had indulged into it, I could have had my share of flings but..." I was constantly scrutinizing him and his jealousy was so amusing to watch and I saw he wanted to stop me from continuing but he didn't interrupt me either.
"I simply wasn't interested in anyone. I just wanted to focus on my work and make a name for myself. I wanted to be someone people look up to." He gave me his most genuine smile.
"And, you made it. Look at you! I'm so proud of you, my love." And placed a butterfly kiss on my temple.
"Kookie, can I ask you something, too." He nodded, without hesitation.
"How are things at home? I mean...I would lie if I said I didn't know they're not good..." He shoot up an eyebrow, questioningly.
"Namjoon." I answered, and he huffed.
"Y/n, you, better than anyone, know why I got married, in the first place. My life has been a living hell since you left. And please, don't tell me you expected me to go on with my life like nothing happened. I seriously loathe that woman. I even avoid that place as much as I can. Tried to talk her into getting a divorce, even before you showed up but she threatened she would do something to harm herself. I really don't know if it was just an empty threat or she really intended to act on it but I really can't continue living like this." And, what he said after, really took me by surprise.
"I regret my decision, every single day. If I knew I had to live like this for these past five years, I would have said no, to the hell with the company. It's all my fault. I did this to us. And now I'm here, looking at you, wondering what might have been." I saw him tearing up. I stood up from where I was seated and got closer to him, laying a hand on his shoulder, squeezing it a bit. I wanted to hold him so badly. And all of a sudden, he placed his head on my tummy and hugged my back tightly with both of his hands, like a little child. Instinctively, I patted his back, trying to calm him down. After staying in silence for a while, he asked with a mushy voice.
"Y/n'ya, will you really leave me again?"

p.s: I know some chapters might seem boring but I need them to get the build up, otherwise the story wouldn't flow well. I need the characters to face their traumas in order to build up a possible future relationship.