A Blast From The Past (Jungkook FF 21+)

chapter 1

Y/n pov

I was lying in my bed, trying to look over the last details about tomorrow's meeting. It was pouring outside, but I felt so cozy tucked in inside my bed even though I was working. A sudden thunder put me out of my thoughts and distracted me from what I was doing, making my heart jump a little. I loved rain, but it always made me feel nostalgic and made me think about what could have been.
I didn't want to open the door to the past and walk down memory lane because that lane was full of pain and heartbreak but, on the other side, there was also love, the kind that sweeps you off of your feet and keeps you up there but that also shakes you to the ground in the most violent way. Yet, I was trying to hold on to my happy memories, the ones you keep inside for your rainy days, like this one. I've always wondered if the life decisions I made back then were the right ones and with that thought in mind I was put out of it by a loud voice and something came hitting me like a hurricane.
"Mommy, mommy!"
"What is it, baby? Why aren't you in your bed?"
"I was dweaming that you weren't there and I was all awone and...and I got scared."
He looked at me with the cutest pouty face, fearing I would reprimand him for not being brave enough. He wanted to behave all grown up for me, and that melted my heart. When I stared back at his big doe eyes, I couldn't help but think about the only person I have been trying so hard to forget. But how can you forget when his miniature image was right in front of you every single day.
"Oh baby, it was just a nightmare. But don't worry, it's all gone now and I'm here with you. Let's get you to bed, okay."
"Can you rwead something for me, pwease..."
"But it's so late, baby. You have kindergarten tomorrow."
"Pwease, mommy."
He started pouting, knowing very well I would give in to his demands as soon as he made that face.
Damn you Jeon genes, you always made me cave in.
I tucked him in his bed, read to him for a little while until I noticed he was sleeping soundly. Hopefully, he'd sleep peacefully without a care in the world, like all children his age should.
It has only been him and I. These past five years have been so lonely without Kookie. I missed him every single day, and I couldn't help but wonder if life had been kind to him. If he had changed or is still the same person whom I fell in love with and...if he ever thought of me, of us. But, there was an ocean, a literal and a figurative one, between us. But, as the saying goes, tomorrow is another day and, I needed to focus on my life because between all the load of work and taking care of my little man, it had been nothing but hectic lately.
As I tied my hair, I thought that a good night sleep would have kept me away from thinking about what I shouldn't have been thinking about.
"Uggghhhhh...damn it, Jungkook! Get out of my head already...and my heart too... and close the door, it's cold."
"It's so cold without you, Kookie."
She cried herself to sleep that night.

JK pov

I arrived at work early, earlier than usual. Thankfully, no one had arrived yet. Good, I thought, this should buy me some time to myself, without anyone hovering over me like hawks, twenty-four-seven. I needed to breathe. These past few days, I felt like I was lost for air, but it wasn't oxygen I craved for. I've been working non-stop, so I wouldn't think about her, about us. When I'm home...huh, home, what a strange word; more like the place I occasionally slept in. Whenever I entered that place, I felt like a ghost took over my body and soul. My "dear" wife tried so hard pretending everything was working out fine between us and making everyone believe we were the perfect couple. It was like trying to fix a broken clock that has been missing a piece for so long now.
I hated that house and everything and everyone in it.
You will wonder how I, the almighty Jeon Jungkook, ended up in such a situation. Sometimes, it felt like I was living someone else's life; as if I was looking at another person's life from afar and laughing at his decisions because only a fool would have surrendered without a fight and lose the love of his life instead of his company.
With these thoughts in my head, I got out of the office to prepare some coffee and enjoy what was left of the little time I had to myself.
He chuckled a bit at the thought of preparing his own coffee because one of the few times he got to make it, it strangely gave him a sense of normalcy. It was refreshing to be normal, for once; to be just Kookie instead of THE Jeon Jungkook, the CEO.
If Secretary Cha would see him make his own coffee, she'd scream to the scandal bc God forbid he's not imparting orders to others and walking on water. But, he was so grateful to her. She's was like a mother to him; unlike his own. He craved so much for something or someone to call his own. He hasn't had that in a while.
When he was in that goddamn house, he felt like he was in a theatre. Everything felt like an act, where he was the main character in his own tragedy. He sometimes thought of himself as Macbeth, surrounded by the three witches that eventually brought him to his early death; his wife, his mother, and his mother-in-law. At the mere thought of them, his skin started to get itchy. Absentmindedly, he grabbed his coffee and walked back to his office. Then, decided to listen to some music to put these evil thoughts to sleep.
He doesn't want to think about her, not now, not ever. She made that clear.
He proceeded to put on some music. It always helped him relax.
"I'm in my bed
And you're not here
And there's no one to blame but the drink in my wandering hands..."
"Oh shit, so much for trying not to think and now I'll fucking lose my sanity."
After putting down the coffee mug, he switched the damn thing off. Even the radio had decided to mock him now. Lost in thought, he hadn't heard the office door open.
"Oh good, you're already here!" Secretary Cha had barged in without knocking and was already on work mode.
"Uhmmm... whatever happened to knocking?! Did we have a referendum and abolished the whole damn thing?!" I commented snarkily at her unusual behavior.
"Good morning to you, too. I see we're in a good mood today."
Secretary Cha looked back at me for a second and then proceeded with the daily agenda, not caring about my sarcastic commentary. When it came to work stuff, she was just as workaholic as me, if not more.
"Mr. Kim will arrive shortly. He called and said you need to prepare for the meeting regarding the overseas company that is trying to open a branch here in Seoul."
As Secretary Cha was trying to finish her phrase, I heard the door open again.
"I'm here! Jeez, the traffic out there is craaazyyy. It's like they all decided to come out at the same time just to spite me. I'm telling ya, Joonie, with his bicycle, has all figured it out."
Taehyung started rambling non-stop, and I was on the verge of getting a major headache. I had to stop him, or kill him.
"Tae, dude, sorry, but have you joined the same sect as Secretary Cha, by any chance?"
Taehyung was staring at me dumbfoundedly, as if I was talking nonsense.
"You know they invented knocking for a reason, right?!"
Taehyung, without looking at me, turned around to look at Secretary Cha. And, ignoring the bunny in the room, while lowering his voice, as if I wasn't within hearing distance from them, said to her:
"Is that time of the month again?!"
I ignored his sarcastic comment, pretending not to hear. I didn't have the will to fight with anyone today, let alone with Taehyung.
Secretary Cha raised her eyes as if reprimanding him from saying anything else on the matter so as not to add more fuel to an already angered fire.
Jungkook got up from his chair and urged the both of them to follow him to the meeting room. It was very important to him that this deal went well. It was crucial to the company if he wanted to expand overseas, as well.
Walking through the corridor, he turned to talk to Taehyung, who, in the meantime, was checking out something on his tablet:
"So, do we have solid info about the CEO of the company. I mean, other than what has been fed us by lawyers. You know how I hate surprises, right?!" I patted his shoulder as we walked.
"Don't worry, Kookie. You know I'm nothing if not thorough." He answered without lifting his eyes from tablet.
"Dude, sorry, I know it well, and that's why I trust you with everything. Things other people shouldn't know. You know me, I always get nervous before these things." I fixed my tie again. It was like a stress relief.
"Everything will turn out as planned, you'll see." Taehyung tried to reassure me, but his facial expression telling me otherwise. Under that apparent calm, he looked a bit queasy. He told me he had a strange feeling inside, like something was about to happen. It wasn't either a good or a bad feeling. He couldn't put a finger on it, but he didn't like it, for some reason. I tried to kill that thought and started to prepare on the prominent conference call.

Y/n pov

"Morning, Jane." I said as soon as I heard the door open.
"Morning, Ma'am." She answered back, with a smile on her face.
"Ughhh...don't call me that, you make me feel like an old lady. I've told you to call me Y/n when we're alone." I pushed my chair back and looked at her.
"Sorry, old habits die hard." She commented on my previous statement.
"Ha ha, very funny, Jane." I narrowed my eyes at her, without success.
"You have puffy eyes. Did you get any sleep last night?!" She got closer, observing my face better.
"Don't ask me, but barely. Somebody had a nightmare, and I couldn't make myself sleep after that." I answered as I laid my head on the back of the chair.
"By the way, how's my favorite guy doing? Haven't seen him in a while. I miss him." She pouted cutely.
"Ahhh... he's like a hurricane, and I can barely make him stay put. He has so much energy in him just like..." I coughed it out, not wanting to finish that last sentence.
Jane looked at me, trying to hide a sad smile on her face. I waved that thought away and got my head back in the game.
"So, what's today's agenda, besides the conference call with the company based in Seoul." I asked.
How she hated that name. It's not that she hated it. She hated that she had to leave it. And him.
"If I weren't the CEO of this goddamn place, I would have called in sick and spent the day with my little man." I spoke dreamily to a well focused Jane. I hadn't realized I had voiced my thoughts out loud until I heard a small chuckle from the other side of the desk.
"But you are so, chop chop. Today is gonna be a rollercoaster." Jane answered.
"Oh my God, did I say that out loud?!" I asked her, just to be sure.
"Yeah, but don't worry. I know you've been working non-stop, and you need a vacation. And... "She emphasized the last word so she could get my attention.
"You need to go on dates again or get laid."
Although she tried to say that last part in a very low voice, almost as if she was talking to herself but the message was passed along loud and clear.
"You know I don't have time for that." I said, trying to brush the topic off quickly.
"Uhm... no! You don't wanna make time for that. There's a huge difference." She side eyed me, thinking I didn't notice.
"Don't push me, Jane. I'm not ready yet." I answered defensively.
"Y/n, will you ever be ready?! It's been five years already. How much time do you need?! Look at yourself! You're a beautiful, intelligent, confident woman and you're one the best female CEO's out there but as soon as I mention him it's as if you turn into the same insecure girl that left Seoul five years ago." She lowered her head, trying to look me in the eye.
"I know you're right, but I can't help it. If it makes you feel any good, I'll think about getting back into the dating game again. Now, we got a conference call that's a bit urgent. By the way, did you find out who we are really dealing with here. You know what I mean."
"You know me, I'm nothing if not thorough." She answered, jumping a little bit on her way out.
"You'd better. It's bad enough that I have to deal with a korean company again." I rolled my eyes, making her shake her head disapprovingly.
Y/n winced at the thought of her past memories. But, she snaped out of it promptly, needing to focus on this important meeting. It had to go well. It was imperative to her work.
"So, Jane, this Mr. Min, the CEO of the company. Tell me about him." I asked while she handled me the tablet with all the info.
"Hmmm... he is no longer the CEO, though. He had to step back because of health issues. They have appointed a new CEO, which happens to be his very handsome son in law, or so I've heard." Jane sound of voice went high pitched as she bit her lip playfully, trying to cheer up the mood. Then, she sighed, making me smile but continued with her inside info as if nothing had happened.
"If you ask me, he was pulling the ropes all along because Mr. Min, from what I gathered from one of my sources, couldn't wait to step back. Health issues, my ass. He just wanted to play golf in peace." She scoffed.
"Jane!" I reprimanded her in a semi serious tone while I was trying hard to suppress my own laughter.
"So, back to business. This new CEO then, what's his name?" I asked, as I kept thinking about the chances that there might be two companies having the same name as...
"Ah, here...Jeon...Jeon Jungkook."