Pangarap ng Simbahan

Chapter 17

Jenice Claire's POV

It was late in the evening when Fretche and Jade went home, the night is getting deeper and it's telling me to go to sleep, so, i wore my pajamas and started sleeping

Little do i know, this wasn't just an ordinary sleep, i was taken away somewhere else, somewhere 5 years ago when daddy was alive, as i said, i was a colorful person

My mind was filled with dreams and the flame of my faith burning alive in my heart and a daddy's girl of course, i remember kissing him in the cheeks and say 'i love you dad' everytime i would leave for school

One hug before he responds 'i love you anak' making me to feel so lucky of having him, he was a guy like no other, impossible to find making me to pray and thank God everyday that he became my father

He softly speaks and never shouts at me, he comforts me when i get sad or whenever I'm crying, he treats me with my comfort foods when i get bored, aside from that, i learned so many lessons from him

One day, i burst myself to tears knowing na hindi gaano ka laki ang grades ko para makapasok sa mga honor students, i cried so much because ang dami nang ginawang mabuti sila mommy at daddy sakin

Knowing na hindi ako pasok sa honors made me feel na I'm not making them happy, they're not gonna be proud of me

I cried lonely in my room, atleast makapasok lang ako sa honor list para makabawi sa kanila, but it didn't happen

"Hindi na magiging proud sila mommy at daddy sakin", i said to myself habang tumutulo ang mga luha ko, pinahiran ko ang mga luha gamit ang aking kamay

Suddenly, the door creaked open and daddy was the one who opened it, he sees me at my bed, crying with my head na nakayuko

He slowly approached me while he said "Anak, bakit ka umiiyak?", His soft spoken voice ready to comfort me, lumapit siya sa bed kung nasaan ako at niyakap niya ako

"Are you mad at me?", I asked him still crying inside while he comforts me, he is slowly caressing my hair

"Bakit naman ako magagalit sayo?", Tanong niya sakin kahit alam na niya ang dahilan kung bakit ako umiiyak

"Come on dad, hindi ako naging honor student", i replied to him

"It's okay, you don't have to pressure yourself too hard", he said na nagpawala ng konti sa lungkot ko, ang swerte ko talaga, halos lahat ibinibigay sakin, iniispoil ako ng sobrang pagmamahal

"Ang importante, nakapagtapos ka, baka sa susunod magiging honor student ka na kung pagsisikapan mo pa ang iyong pag-aaral", sabi niya sakin para mas magkaroon ako ng motivation para maabot ang goal ko

"Gusto mo talaga maging honor student?", Tanong niya sakin

"Opo", sinabi ko yon out of regret, nagsisisi talaga ako kung bakit hindi ako naging honor student

"Huwag ka nang umiyak", he said to me so that i should stop on crying, nalulungkot pa rin ako

"Maging honor ka man o hindi, lagi mo lang tatandaan anak ha na proud na proud ako sayo", hearing him those words gives me more reasons to cry even more

Not because of the sadness, but because of the happiness radiating inside my heart, kahit hindi raw ako maging honor student, proud pa rin siya sakin, he wiped my tears from falling down and looked at me

"Gusto mo bang lumabas tayo at kumain ng ice cream?", Kumalas na siya sa pagyakap sa akin at nakaakbay nalang ang kanyang kamay sa balikat ko

Palagi talagang sinasabi ni daddy sakin yan para hindi na ako maging malungkot, pero sa ngayon, I don't think i can accept his offer