Pangarap ng Simbahan

Chapter 51

Jenice Claire's POV

It’s getting late tonight, after the interment ay umuwi na kaagad kami sa bahay, it was so exhausting staying up late until midnight and sleep at dawn

Sana makatulog na ako ng mahimbing kahit may kirot pa rin ng pighati sa puso ko

I texted Pedro on his phone right now so we can have contact

“Hi ga, kumusta ka ngayon?”

For the past few days we were planning on what to call to each other, I can remember him recommending ‘love’, ‘babe’, and much worst ‘honeypie’ to me

I declined because they’re too overrated, what I suggested is “ga” I read it somewhere on my social media that it’s the shorter word of “langga”, which is a dearly cebuano word, and the two letter ‘g’ and ‘a’ also stands for ‘guardian angel'

So I think that’s the perfect term we call each other

“Naglilinis na ako dito ga, baka bukas papasok na ulit ako sa karinderya” his reply to me

“Naiiyak pa rin ako” my response to him

“Huwag ka nang umiyak ga, nagpahinga na si nanay, ikaw magpahinga ka na rin diyan” his message of concern

“Puntahan kita bukas sa karinderya” I ask him permission

I don’t know what to do there, parang gusto ko lang siyang makita

“Huwag muna, baka gusto mong lumabas kasama mga kaibigan mo” his reply leads me to a question, or maybe siguro need niya muna magwork, bigyan muna namin ng space ang isa’t-isa

“It’s okay, I understand, have some time for yourself” my reply is just enough to end the conversation

Baka labis na talaga siyang nasaktan sa pangyayari kaya gusto niya munang mapag-isa, I’ll give him some time, nirerespeto ko siya kagaya nang pagrespeto niya sakin

I was thinking of getting to sleep when suddenly someone chatted me on messenger, I’m just lying down in bed, wearing pajamas in this air-conditioned room

“Hoy Jenice girl, lumabas naman tayo! Masyado ka nang matamlay” Jade messaged me that, she added me back to that group that I left

“Oo nga girl, you need some time to heal after everything that happened” Fretche joined the conversation, yet their enthusiasm wasn’t enough to boost my energy or keep my sadness away

“Why does God take away the people we love?”

I left them a big question in the hopes na makakasagot sila dito, pero wala eh, all they have to do is just sad react to my question

My mind is full of questions right now, I just want some wisdom if you care! Then Fretche actually replied, she’s a good girl to answer a tough one

“Girl, it’s just that, people simply come and go, we know how much you love her, masakit siya kasi biglaan, but we have to accept reality as it is”

Based on her reply, she was having difficulties in answering the question

“But why? She’s so kind and generous, napakabuti niyang tao, dapat nga mas binigyan pa ng magandang buhay keysa naman na mamatay”