Pangarap ng Simbahan

Chapter 35

Jenice Claire's POV

Isang linggo na ang lumipas at nandito pa rin ako sa hospital, Jeff is still under coma and nagbabantay pa rin ako sa gabi at si mom naman ang sa umaga together with Yaya Esterlina

I was getting used to the place especially ang loneliness dahil matapos ang bonding naming dalawa ni Pedro ay yun na yun! That was our last meet up with each other dahil kailangan niyang magtrabaho sa karinderya

It would be useless kung mag-absent siya dahil magbabantay naman si mom sa umaga at parang kaya na nila na bantayan si Jeff without needing any help

Still i am having fun here dahil binibisita naman ako nila Jade and Fretche and now they know kung gaano ko kamahal si Jeff at buong puso na tinatanggap as my father

They were touched by my story as i told them na I'm slowly turning myself back to God and I'm willing to believe and trust him again if magagawa niyang iligtas si Jeff at gisingin na mula sa pagkakatulog

Gumising ka na kasi Jeff, para kang si sleeping beauty eh pero sinong hahalik sayo? Lalaki pa rin ba o babae? I laughed to my self quietly, ang weird naman kung talagang kiss lang ang makakagising sa kanya

Why not sampalin ko nalang siya? For sure gigising talaga siya dahil may lumagapak na kamay sa mukha niya, kung pwede lang sana

But then here i am again, it was late at night and hindi pa ako natutulog, nakakatakot na siya dahil isang week na siyang natutulog at nakahiga sa hospital bed, isang linggo na rin akong nagdarasal ni God na sana gisingin na niya si Jeff

I started talking to Jeff when i get bored and no matter how many times i talk to him, tell him what i feel about him being a kind person, he just doesn't wake up kahit na hinahawakan ko ang kanyang matamlay na kamay

Walang kibo, tulog pa rin at nakapikit ang kanyang mga mata, paano kung hindi na siya magising? Crap! I'm having doubts about God again kahit ilang beses na akong nagdarasal sa kaya

Nananalangin sa gitna ng katahimikan na sana magising na siya, but it's been a week now and because of it ay may maraming tanong ang sumagi sa isipan ko

Is he gonna be okay?

Why is he still sleeping?

Will he ever wake up?

Are my prayers effective or not?

Is God listening to me?

All of it, keep on running through my mind giving me a reason to lose hope and maybe just surrender, i looked at him sleeping soundly, still under coma and has not exact date and time of when he will wake up

It's still unknown, my questions are so hard to answer, I can't answer it all by myself, i need God right now but where is he? I fear the situation right now and Pedro isn't here beside me to give me comfort and reassurance

Sure i can text him anytime to come here but I can't, nakakaistorbo lang kasi natutulog na yon at syempre ipinagdarasal niya si Jeff doon bago siya matulog

I realized na si mommy na naman ang magbabantay ni Jeff bukas so babalik na naman ako sa bahay namin para magpahinga, i was thinking on how to spend the day tomorrow nang hindi naiinip because i know papasok na naman si Pedro sa karinderya at may work and hindi siya makapunta dito sa hospital para samahan niya ako sa bahay