This Is Just Between Us

oxytocin high

America pov
(art by my pumpkin crowsong on YouTube, Tumblr, and Wattpad {Rainbowstar772} )

Once I'm home with Russia, he held me tight and snuggled into my hair.
The way he's holding me is odd though, his arms are wrapped around one of my curves.
I don't mind though, I like the feeling of his arms around me.
Holding me so close I can hear his heart beat.
It's relaxing in a way.
Russia:" You wanna play a drinking game? The states won't be here for a while right?"
America:"It's 9 and they come home at 2... as long as we don't get too drunk- actually as long as I don't get too drunk we'll be fine."
Russia smiled and let go of me going to the kitchen to find some alcohol, but I don't keep it in there because some of states can reach the higher cabinets.
America:" I keep the alcohol in my room, we can play in there but I have to clean my room first."
Russia:"I can help if you want."
America:"No! I mean! It's fine, it's my room and it's not that big of a mess, so I can do it myself!"
I said walking backwards before booking it to my room and locking the door.
I quickly stuff my cork board, victim list, and color code list under my bed.
Then I unlocked the door and realized Russia was standing right in front of it.
Because it hit him straight in the neck.
He is 6'11 and a half.
Russia:"GAH! Ow.... That hurt just as bad as the time Israel threw a hardcover dictionary at my head-"
America:"Excuse me what-"
He just walked in and sat criss cross on my bed. He put his shoes by my door first.
I have a concerned face as I went to where I keep my alcohol and brought out two bottles, wine for me and vodka for Russia.
America:"Wait we for the shot glass-"
Russia dug into his hat and took out two shot glasses.
Russia:"You were saying?"
America:"You sly mother fucker!"
Russia:"Excuse me? I'm a sly and seductive mother fluffer."
He said, crossing his arms and sticking his tongue out.
America:"You're right, my bad."
Russia:"Wait you think I'm seductive- FUCK YEAH!"
I sat on the bed next to him with a red face.
America:"Who doesn't?"
Russia:"A lot of people-"
America:"Minus your family, lesbian friends, and friends in relationships."
Russia:"So we're playing rock paper scissors, whoever loses takes a shot."
I snorted at him changing the subject like that before taking a shot.....
Yeah we ended up- Russia ended up drunk as hell as now we're making out.
It feels wrong knowing he has a girlfriend but it also feels right as if there's something that craves his kiss, his touch, his love....
When we let go because air is a thing I nuzzled into his chest giggling a bit.
Russia gave out a chuckle before wrapping an arm around me and putting a hand to my cheek.
Russia:"I love you Teddy bear..."
America:"Te quoque amo(I love you too)"
He kissed my forehead, then my cheek, then my other cheek, he ended up kissing my entire face.
I can tell I'm extremely red, I can also tell that Russia is purposely trying to make me even more red.
But I don't mind, his love is something I want.... Something I need.... Something that without, I don't know how I'd continue living....
Then we hear a knock on the front door.
America:"SWEET MOTHER MARY THE KIDS ARE HOME!"
I practically fall out of bed as I rush to the front door.
Unlocking it, I let my kids in.
They each gave me a look, other than Alaska.
She sniffed the air and just said-
Alaska:"Oxytocin."
Before walking off to her room.
I go even more red before hearing what I assume is a drunk Russia face planting to the floor.
Russia:"The floor is ok!"
I walk over with a worried and annoyed face.
America:"No one is worried about the floor, I'm worried about you being hurt."
Pennsylvania:" I'm worried for both, those floors were expensive!"
I sigh and give Russia a check up.
He's ok... Somehow.
I helped him up and went to bring him back to my room but he somehow got out of my grip and walked off.
New York:"Great grandma Papa is hammered-"
South Carolina:"Seriously- I knew he drank but I didn't know he drank this much-"
Russia:"Please, I have worse!"
Alaska:"He once tried to go to Europe after getting so drunk he couldn't recognize my aunt Belarus. He said and I quote 'Who are you! What are you doing in this box I'm trapped in' while swinging around a sword that wasn't there. I was only a few months before a year old when that happened but I still remember it to this day because of how funny and ridiculous it was."
Russia:"Don't forget the time I ended up flirting with the wall!"
Alaska:"How can I forget, you introduced me to the kitchen wall as my new mother."
Florida:"What the hell...."
Georgia:"LANGUAGE!"
Arizona:"We'll start giving a shit when you stop trying to get us not to curse."
Georgia did not like that response so I ended up having to step in while giving Russia to Alaska...
I passed a drunk adult to a 6 year old who somehow handled him better than I did.
Alaska:"I'm going to get you a cup of vodka and apple juice, stay right there."
I panicked before seeing her pouring just a cup of apple juice.
She walked over and gave it to him, he drank it and asked for more.
As she went off to get him another cup she winked at me as if to tell me 'You're welcome' , I nod in response as a thank you.
She really knows her papa.
Alaska:"How are you feeling?"
Russia:"Depressed."
Alaska:"Too sober!"
She then ran off and came back with a cocktail that Michigan clearly made.
She gave it to Russia who drank it, looking like he was about to have a mental breakdown.
As he finished it he was looking a lot better.
Russia:"Thanks Ask!"
Alaska:"Anytime papa!"
Russia picked her up and went over to the kitchen which I also went to.
America:"What was with the uhm...."
Russia:"If I'm fully sober all of my trauma will hit me like a train and I may end up...trying to.... Take my.......life......"
I see Alaska snuggle into him, trying to comfort him which was slightly working.
I decided I was going to help as well.
He smiled once I came over and the 3 of us hugged for a little while.
Alaska then sniffed again.
Alaska:"Oxytocin and...... chlorine?"
Russia:"1. How can you smell hormones produced when someone is in love 2. Where is the chlorine smell coming from 3. Who are you smelling the oxytocin from?"
Alaska shrugged at the first question.
Alaska:"Couldn't tell ya about the chlorine, but I'm assuming it's coming from one of my siblings and the Oxytocin? You two reak of it."
Russia laughed a bit.
Russia:"Yes, me and Israel are-"
Alaska:"You couldn't read your own emotions even if they were standing in front of you with flashing lights."
Missouri:"Flashing lights?!"
Is what we heard her yell from the living room.
We ran to it to see what was going on only to see
Missouri had stuffed a pillow into her face trying to avoid the non existent flashing light.
Kentucky:"Chill, there are no flashing lights."
Missouri then removed the pillow.
Alaska:"I was just calling papa an idiot."
Russia sighed before getting a phone call.
Picking it up he didn't bother leaving the living room.
Russia:"Yeah hello to you too... no I'm not at a girl's house.... I'm with America!.... No I'm not telling you where he lives...... yes I turned the tracker off, I don't want you stalking me..... I'm not cheating on you, I'm just hanging out with a friend.... Yes I know me and him are very close and somewhat touchy but I swear there's nothing going on.... You never believe me.... I tried overdosing, it didn't work..... oh yeah call me a lying asshole all you want, you know I'm 10x more faithful than you've ever been in this entire relationship! Go ahead, go sleep with your best friend, continue to fuck around with her emotions.... Nothing, it means nothing..... Israel please think rationally here..... thank you.... I love you too.... I guess."
He said 'I guess' after hanging up.
He then hugged me tight, something is off... but I can't tell what is off....
Eventually everyone went their ways and me and Russia were left alone in the living.
He looked around and pinned me to a wall while holding me up to his face by putting me in a piggy back pose but facing his front instead of his back.
I could feel my face going red....what is happening?!
He then kissed me...we're both sober-ish, he can never be fully sober.
I eventually melted into the kiss wrapping arms around his neck a bit tighter doing the same with my legs.
Something about this felt wrong but oh so right...
When we pulled away he whispered something into my ear.
Russia:"I love you Teddy bear...."
Those words being whispered made my heart race once more as I felt my face heat up.
America;"Te quoque amo Mons leo(I love you too mountain lion)"
We just stayed in that position, foreheads resting on each other's.
I soon feel a soft and what seems like a loving kiss on my neck.
America:"Russia what did I.... Fuck it, no one is around right now."
Russia:"Just once, if you want me to continue kissing your what you said sensitive spot, we should probably be somewhere more private."
I don't know what's getting into me, but the feeling of what is probably empty calorie love is something I want, something I enjoy......something I need. I have to have it.
I want his love. I need his love!
Get it together America, you're loosing your fucking mind in a not murder way!
Russia:"America to reality, do you copy?"
America:"Huh?! Oh, sorry, I dozed off..."
Russia:"Something on your mind?"
Someone is on my mind....
America:"No... just nervous about Saturday..."
He put me down and sat on a couch, I sat next to him.
Russia:"Want to talk about it?"
America:"I just don't like parties..."
Russia:"As long as Israel isn't there you can hang around me, I won't let anyone bother you. Other than me~"
I can feel myself go red.
Russia gave a small chuckle before staring into my sunglasses, I can tell he wants to see my black eyes.
I stood up and turned off the lights, lighting candles so he could see.
I sat next to him once again and took off my sunglasses.
He smiled when I started goop eyes.
He just looked into them for a while before he spoke.
Russia:"They're just as pretty as your other eyes... gorgeous..."
I smiled and moved closer to him.
He wrapped an arm around me before putting me on top of him.
He held my lower back and I wrapped myself arms around his neck as I snuggled into him.
Eventually I noticed his breathing slowed down, he fell asleep.
I summoned a blanket on us and I got extra comfortable.