This Is Just Between Us

you drugged me again

Russia pov
(TW: Date rape drug usage, emotional manipulation, attempted rape, slight thoughts of suicide)
(art by my pumpkin crowsong on YouTube, Tumblr, and Wattpad {Rainbowstar772} )

I'm in the back of....
Russia:"Hey driveeeer? What are we driving in?"
Jill:"Russia. It's me Jill, and we're driving in the car I have from the 90s."
Russia:"The 90s?! Does that mean I'm an old person! I wanna be young again!"
Jill:"Russia! You're 20 and I'm 30, you're still young and I'm over here missing my youth..."
Russia:"It's ok! If you think about it, we're all young and will forever be young!"
Jill:"You only think that since you're a country, and your body won't deteriorate... my body does deteriorate, but even though I'm 30 and will die in like 30 to 60 years I'm going to live it to the fullest!"
Russia:"No! I won't let you die! I will call HR and the EU! Or even god!"
She just giggled.
Jill:"This is why you're going to be the godfather of Lily and I's future kids, never change, even when me and the band are dead ok?"
Russia:"I won't let you die! I will give you my blood for immortality!"
Jill:"That's not how it works... Come on, let's get you to your dorm."
Russia:"No! She'll hurt me!"
Jill:"I may be gentle, but I'll fist fight her if I must."
I hug her tightly.
Jill laughed.
Jill:"Alright, I guess I'll be captain. Turn left!"
So I did, this went on for a little while until we made it to my dorm.
I put Jill down and she knocked on the door.
Israel opened the door and looked mad.
Jill:"Calm you tiny tits having bitch, I'm a lesbian. I drove him home because as you can see, he is drunk off his ass. I have to go back to pick up everyone else and take them home, Abby is too pregnant to do it herself."
Israel:"Yeah yeah whatever! Get out you fucking whore!"
I look at Jill and frown, I've never liked how Israel treats my girl friends.
Jill:"Alright bye Russian x2!"
Russia:"Buh-bye gentle Jill!"
She walks off with a sigh and Israel drags me inside. Not again....
Israel:"Are you cheating on me?!"
Russia:"Israel, half of this night has gone black. All I remember is seeing my daughter, meeting my new son and 2nd daughter along with their siblings, my new friend, and going to the bar.... And somehow I ended up in the back of Jill's car from the 90s? 60s? What number did she say?"
Israel then smacked me.
Israel:"WHAT DO YOU MEAN BY HALF OF THE NIGHT HAS GONE BLACK?! ALSO, DAUGHTER?! SON AND 2ND DAUGHTER?! SIBLINGS?! NEW FRIEND?! WE DON'T HAVE KIDS!"
Russia:"Alaska! I remet Alaska and met all of her siblings, her favorite brother and the 2nd youngest girl at her house. Alaska is the youngest. Some of her siblings call me papa..."
Israel:"WHAT?! YOU ACTUALLY GOT TO SEE THAT LITTLE RODENT?! NOT ONLY THAT, BUT YOU NOW SEE TWO MORE BRATS AS YOUR KIDS?! WHO'S THIS FRIEND?! WHY IS HALF THE NIGHT GONE BLACK?!"
Russia:"Baby please..."
Israel:"WHO IS YOUR FRIEND AND WHY IS HALF OF THIS NIGHT GONE BLACK?!"
Russia:"Their parent, I'm friends with their parent... that's all I'm saying. I know you personally and I know you're going to demand answers about them, so I'm not telling."
Israel:"Why are you saying parent hm? ARE THEY A GIRL?!"
Russia:"Черт побери! ты лицемерная сука!(God dammit! you hypocritical bitch!) Ugh... no. They're a boy..."
Israel:"Is that man the reason half of the night has gone black?!"
Russia:"No.....you are....."
I said the last part very quietly.
Israel:"Sorry, I didn't hear that, mind repeating it!?"
Russia:"YOU'RE THE REASON HALF OF THIS DAMN NIGHT HAS GONE BLACK! UGH! YOU FUCKING YOUR BEST FRIEND LEAD ME TO DRINKING MY ASS OFF.... After I reached the bar with Cuba, everything went black until now..."
Israel:"SO I'M THE BAD GUY NOW?! IS THAT SO?!"
Russia:"Baby no! You just made me cry... you're hurting me...."
Israel:"GET OVER IT! You're an adult man! Not some crybaby! Are you a cry baby? Hmm? Hmm? You're lucky you even have me. No one will love you as much as I do, not even your own family.
Especially not your mother, you know who's fault it is."
Russia:"Yeah... you're right. No one will love me as much as you do..."
Israel:"That's right, and I'm also the only who will truly forgive you for causing your mother's death."
I nod.
She truly loves me...
Israel:"That's better, come here and give your darling a kiss!"
I smile and kiss her, then everything goes black...
Not good....
Once I come back to conscience I see Israel trying to undo my belt.
Russia:"Yeah. My dad got Britain to make this drugged sex proof."
Israel:"UGH! I'm clean! Why won't you have sex with me!"
Russia:"I'm done with doing that sin before marriage. I've realized that using my body to make people love me is problematic and honestly makes me feel vandalized."
Israel:"Aren't you the same person who both slept with your best friend and his boyfriend's sister?"
Russia:"For the love of god Israel, me and Kathy dated. Now Cuba, 1. How did you know I slept with Cuba? 2. It was like the 3rd week of summer break in the 1st year of highschool and me and Cuba were at my house getting drunk off our asses and OOOOH man... I'm not getting into it, you and I weren't even near dating."
Israel:"Oh me and Palestine were finished a couple seconds after you caught us, so I listened to your conversation with Cuba as she slept."
Russia:"SO YOU KNEW WHY I WAS GONE?!"
Israel:" I knew part of it. I didn't know about the children and this new friend, I also didn't know Jill was a lesbian-"
I face palm, kiss her on the forehead, and throw her shirt at her.
Russia:"You have a nice upper body, I enjoy the view, but we're waiting till marriage."
She blushed and I smiled.
Although hearing America and the states laughing and seeing their smiles make me smile more...
I'll go visit them tomorrow! I'll even bring Belarus for Mississippi and buy some makeup for Georgia and heels for New York! May as well bring all the alcohol from my alcohol cabinet for Alaska and Michigan, I can bring my cookbook so Florida can practice, I can also show NJ a few gardening tips, from what I've seen I could help with some of the other states by having them practice what they want to do on me- although that means Wyoming has the chance to cut me open- whatever!
At least it won't count as suicide! Or would it... what would Cuba and the band think about my death... what about my family.... What Kathy... WHAT ABOUT ALASKA AND AMERICA?!
Ugh.... Every time I crave death, people who give a shit about me come to mind. Ugh! Why must people care about me!
Then I feel a slap.
Israel:"Uhm bitch boy! My shirt is on, get your head out of lala land and focus on the only thing that truly cares about you!"
Russia:"Ok! Ok! You always need attention, why do I love you?"

The next day

I jump right out of bed, dash out of my dorm and run to my car.
Once I'm in, I hit the gas and drive to my dad's house, breaking in through the window.
Only to almost get hit by one of my sister's arrows.
Belarus:"OK LISTEN LUCAS! JUST BECAUSE I'M A LESBIAN AND REJECTED YOU DOESN'T MEAN YOU CAN ASSASSINATE MY FAMILY- oh it's just you Russia-"
Russia:"1. How the fuck did you get someone so mad over a rejection to the point they feel the need to kill all of us and 2. Do you want to come with me and buy some shit for girls, help a future author, and get drunk with your niece?"
Belarus:"He uhm.... He's Sally's younger brother, also, sure! I haven't seen Alaska in years! But why are we buying girls shit- no... you- you-"
Russia:"I met the states and kinda got attached... you'd love Mississippi, she's kinda like you but less violent- and isn't Christian."
Belarus:"I bet I can teach her a thing or two about archery!"
Russia:"Alright, let's go get some girly and slightly sexual clothes, along with push up bra for Georgia- oh! and lots of cookware for Florida, oh and some seeds for veggies and-"
Belarus:"What are you? A second dad?"
Russia:"Well quite a few of them do call me papa!"
She faced palms.
Belarus:" I'll handle the skimpy clothes and underwear, and maybe some adult toys-"
Russia:"The oldest of them is 17 and the only one who would want those doesn't use protection... yeah new Hampshire told me that-"
Belarus:"I meant for me!"
Russia:"Why would- WHAT THE HELL HAVE YOU BEEN DOING WITH AUSTRALIA?!"
She went red.
Belarus:"Being topped-"
I groan and take her to my car.
Russia:"Please explain why you're doing that before marriage?"
Belarus:"What about you in highschool and Ukraine?"
Russia:"I thought using my body would keep my partners from leaving me, and Ukraine... like Canada..."
Belarus:"He's a loved regret?"
Russia:"You got it!"

AN: Shit, had a busy Saturday- sorry about the late posting!