This Is Just Between Us

Sentimental items

Russia pov
(art by my pumpkin crowsong on YouTube, Tumblr, and Wattpad {Rainbowstar772} )
(TW: attempted suicide, pedophilia, child abuse, alcoholism, kidnapping, ransom

Not again.... I thought with him by my side these dreams would stop... but here I am.
Backing up to a wall as my teacher walks up to me slowly taking off his belt....
I'm pleading for him to get away and stop.
For him to leave me alone.
No matter how loud I pleaded, he didn't stop...
Soon I see the light coming from a door swinging open and see the few times my dad being an actual dad....
This was the first time I had ever seen someone get murdered... or so I thought. He survived the several stabbings....
Soon the dark room spun and I was back to standing in the doorway with my father that led to the dark room my mother was in.
But this time Nazi spoke in my dad's voice.
He's the real reason my mom is dead after all.
I want to move and save her but like usual, I can't move.
All I can do is watch the blood drip down her face as the life in her eyes die out...
I fell to my knees and heard the angry yelling and insults that fuck with me on the daily.
Soon I feel myself get picked up by the neck and get thrown into my brother ukraine.
Everything goes black.
I bolt up awake, hyperventilating.
America:"Russia what's wrong?!"
I lightly push him off me and run to his bathroom.
I locked the door so he couldn't come in.
America:"Russia what are you doing in there?!"
After I bit I found what I was looking for.
Pain Killers.
I open the bottle and look at the pills.
The whole bottle should be enough to kill me...
I put the bottle down as I got a notification and the first thing I saw was my lock screen that had a fresh picture of Alaska....
The notification is from Ukraine.
I tap to see the notification and saw it was him and my other siblings with alcohol asking me to join....
Russia: sure, be there in an hour!
I close the bottle and sigh, putting it away as I start to cry.
Russia:"I'M SO FUCKING SELFISH!"
I yelled at myself as I broke America's mirror so I wouldn't have to look at myself.
I soon heard the door being busted down and saw a panicked America.
America blinked and sighed.
America:"I've been there too... you want to end it all but remember that there are people who care about you so you Don't...."
Russia:"How do you-"
America:"Back when I was being called ugly I broke my fair share of mirrors so I wouldn't have to see something so ugly... I called a suicide hotline I saw on a wall while taking a walk during the night..."
Russia:"Glad the band and I's effort helped..."
I said washing the blood off my hands and letting him patch me up.
Russia:"Sorry about-"
America:"That mirror breaks all the time, it's fine."
I smile and kiss him before telling him I'm off to see my siblings.
Once I get there I just kick the door open.
Russia:"WHAT'S UP FUCKERS!"
Belarus:"Russia!"
Bel ran up and hugged me, so I picked her up.
Upside Down.
The skirt of her dress fell showing her panties but everyone was laughing.
I walked in like that, seeing Kazakhstan close the door.
I threw Belarus into the couch as I was tossed an Aunt Roberta.
Russia:"Whoa! Ukraine, did you make these?"
Ukraine:"I had some help from Germany."
Germany:"You mean we had some help from Belarus."
I drank my aunt Roberta and smashed the cup on the floor.
Ukraine:"What is with you and smashing glass?"
Belarus:"He's just excited!"
Russia:"Damn right I am, I LOVE AUNT ROBERTAS!"
I said as I was given another one.
Ukraine:"So how have you and America been?"
Russia:"Real kissy, let's me hold him while I sleep which I enjoy doing."
I said drinking another Aunt Roberta as I sit on a counter.
Russia:"Although this Burkina Faso dude is getting on my nerves, being a little too friendly with America."
I see Ukraine and Belarus gain a worried face before calming down. Or forcing themselves to look calm.
They know something....
Germany:"Really? Because I saw Cevvin being really 'friendly' with America, by friendly I mean flirty and by flirty I mean touchy."
Ukraine:"Oooh... you messed up there big bro..."
Germany:"What do you- OH SHIT-"
I threw my glass at a fucking wall clearly pissed, Germany jumping out the way just in time.
Germany:"Yeah I know you guys said he can get protective over the people he loves but I didn't think you meant this!"
Belarus:"We didn't think he'd be like this!"
Ukraine threw ice cold vodka at me.
Ukraine:"GET IT TOGETHER DOUCHEBAG! Me, Bel, and you are going to be having a VERRRRRY long conversation."
The coldness and his stern tone made me freeze up before getting Shaky before evening myself out.
Russia:"Sorry.... I don't know what got into me! I've never reacted like this before..."
Germany:"Reminds me of Poland, once he hears someone's fucking with me, he goes nuts!"
Russia:"Poland? You're kidding."
Germany:"You'd say the same thing if I told you he Tops me now."
Russia:"He-"
Ukraine:"Does-"
Belarus:"WHAAAAAT?!"
Kazakhstan:"What does that mean exactly?"
Russia:"Kaz go to your room."
Kazakhstan:"You're not my-"
Ukraine:"He fucking raised us, listen to him god damnit!"
Kazakhstan groaned and walked to his room very slowly.
Once he's gone, me, Ukraine, and Belarus all turn our heads to a bright red Germany.
His entire face was red and his hands were making a hand washing movement.
Russia:"Pfft, bottom."
Germany:"Shut up you damn child!"
Russia:"I'm literally two human years younger than you."
Germany:"Exactly, you're younger than me."
Belarus:"Ger, you're craving death."
Germany:"Wait what-"
Ukraine:"You poked the bear, now prepared to be full of fear."
Russia:"Did you just call me a bear...."
I see Belarus smack Ukraine on the back of the head .
Belarus:"This is why we say you'd be the first one dead in a horror movie."
I just drink another Aunt Roberta, and another, and another, and.... I've lost count-
Ukraine:"And he's now too drunk to function. Great."
Germany:"I- I- I'll call America..."
Belarus:"Pfft, can't wait to watch this play out."
I watch as Germany calls America as I smile.
I was sat down by Ukraine and Belarus as we waited for America.
When America came in, he saw me in the couch and went over to my drunk ass.
Russia:"Ты здесь!(You're here!)"
America:"Great mom, you're really dru-"
I pulled onto my lap which made him go somewhat red.
America:"Mons leo! We're in front of 3 flipping people!"
Belarus:"Sibling code."
Ukraine:"Sibling code."
Germany:"Siblings code."
Russia:"Родственный код!(Sibling code!)"
America:"I- I'm not gonna ask-"