This Is Just Between Us

I would never, or would I?

Russia pov
(art by my pumpkin crowsong on YouTube, Tumblr, and Wattpad {Rainbowstar772} )
(TW:Dream about suicide, mental abuse, psychological torment, mention of death of a minor, mention of death)

As America and I walk in I feel him grip onto my arm, a strong grip.
Russia:"If you wanted to feel my muscles, you could've just asked and I would've taken off my shirt so you could see more and have more access."
I said looking down to see his bright red face.
America:"That's not- ugh Russia whhhhhy!"
I pick him up and give him a kiss.
That's when we hear a camera click and the clicks of high heels.
New York:"Get a room, like Alaska and Wyoming when they spy on people."
America:"Wait what-"
"NEW YORK YOU Чёртов снитч(FUCKING SNITCH)"
I hear my asshole daughter yell.
Russia:"She called you a snitch-"
New York:"I'd beat her but she has a switchblade and a chicken that is very protective of their mom."
Russia:"Mom?"
America:"Like Ari, Alaska is a bird mom."
Russia blinked and just took him to our room.
Russia:"So, do you want to see?"
I watch as he goes even more red and pushes my face away.
I laughed and drop him on our bed causing him to bounce a bit.
America:"Stupid tree-"
I laughed and lay down next to him.
He also laid down which I took as an opportunity to snuggle the one I treasure most(That's not my siblings).
We decided to use this time to teach each other our languages. I got somewhat far and I think he's getting nowhere. Shit.
Soon I get a news notification on my phone.
Russia:"Holy shit, another person died."
America:"What?! Who died?"
Russia:"Sweden, take a look."

News: I'm here with another murder case. This one has been the most gruesome of them all as if today. Sweden Swiss Fish- there is no way that is his actual name-
Camera man: It's on his ID
Well I'll be damned- anyways, Sweden Swiss Fish was found dismembered- WHOA WHOA WHOA, NO ONE TOLD ME HE WAS DISMEMBERED-
Cut
He was found dismembered in the bathroom of Minty Tamara Loops. A dress, gloves, and heels were found bloody along with a circular saw with no fingerprints but that is believable to be a cause of the gloves. Of all the clothes she could've done that in, she chose that?
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Although the person who reported it, Cuba Alex Bahama, said he was hooking up with Minty that night- wait... isn't he married to 3 different people with a 1 month old son and a daughter in the way?
Some backstage: He's in an open poly amorous relationship
Oh- ok that makes sense
Cut
He said he did smell something off but blamed it on her dirty laundry and didn't think much of it till he went to use the bathroom- hold on now, she had dirty laundry while she had someone over to hook up with? What kind of nasty who-
Cut
He had bloody footsteps but those were found to be made when he found the body as there was a puddle of blood he had not noticed. Although he is more than likely innocent he is being questioned per protocol. That is all for today.

America:"Cuba's being questioned?!"
Russia:"Calm down Teddy bear, this hasn't been the first time he's been brought to questioning over crimes he wasn't a part of. He'll be fine."
America:"What?!"
Russia:"He's gonna be fine."
America:"Russia this mur-"
Russia:"1983, our 2rd year of highschool. Samantha Tube was found murdered in the boys bathroom. Cuba found her body and reported it but he had messed with her body, somewhat, as he thought she was asleep."
America:"That was him who got questioned?!"
Russia:"Plus the band and I as he was hanging out hours before her body was found."
America:"Great mom... who killed her anyways? I never figured that out-"
Russia:"It was that one skirt person,the one who took a religious bead necklace and hit me with it because I'm Russian Orthodox and not Chtistian-"
America:"Christian Christian."
Russia:"Damn, her name is pretty fitting."
America:"Tell me about it."
He said with a small laugh then a relaxed noise as I began to play with his hair.
If only he didn't take every time I said I loved him as a joke.
America:"Oh! I have to meet up with Faso tomorrow to cook and bake with him."
Russia:"Can I join? I wanna be the taste tester..."
His eyes lit up a bit and snuggled his face into my chest before speaking.
America:"Of course you can! We needed one anyway, due to me not eating."
Russia:"Make me something sweet and chocolatey!"
America:"I will mons leo, I will."
Soon the room went quiet till I fell asleep and started to dream.
It was a nice dream, there wasn't much to it though.
Just us introducing our families to a little girl who looks like a mix of me and America.
Her name was never said but hey, that's for the future maybe? But then the room shattered like glass and I saw I was chained to a wall, every toxic ex I've had are on a loop of one being switching between them all.
Every word they called me...
Every rumor they spread about me..
Every blame that was put on me.
Soon the floor dropped and I witnessed every time I tried to kill myself.
I was frozen...
Like when I was a kid....
The moment I started crying the room spun and I found myself at my mother's funeral.
"It's hell knowing you're useless, couldn't even save your mother, selfish, tried killing yourself even when there were people who needed you-, heartless cheating bastard!"
Those words started off as my father, things my father wouldn't say. But that last part really was spoken by Israel's voice.
I spin my head around and see her fake crying.
"He hit me! He's a cheater! All I ever did was treat you, care for you, and love you! and you repay me by cheating?!"
It's at that point I felt my pocket knife in my pocket.
I took it out and slowly stabbed myself in the head.
That's when I jolted awake.
America:"Russia! What's wrong?!"
Russia:"I- I- all my past mistakes.... All my regrets.... Israel...."
America:"How.... How often do you have nightmares?"
Russia:"Way too often since my mom died... it's strange because it started off as a happy and peaceful dream but then...."
America:"You dealt with some dream twisting. Massachusetts brought it up and explained a lot about dream theory and how it can be connected to one's past, current emotions, or just stress."
Russia:"This is the first time I've had dream twisting happen... usually it's just a nightmare about my childhood but this one was about my exes, my mistakes, my regrets, it ended with me killing myself..."
He had his hand clasp to his mouth before hugging me tight.
America:"It's ok... the past is the past, although from the sounds of it you seem to be doing something that is causing dream twisting."
I sigh and give him a kiss before standing up and walking downstairs to notice Wyoming, Hawaii, and Alaska were awake. I noticed America following me so I had to stop him from going into the kitchen.
Russia:"Shh, just watch"
We saw Alaska put Hawaii on her shoulders, she climbed into the counter and helped Wyoming up so she could stand on his shoulders to reach the... coconut sugar.
Alaska:"All this work just to get some fruit sugar?"
Alaska asked as she helped her sibling off the counter.
Hawaii:"It's special, trust me! Grab the 'Ulu flour.'
Alaska:"Why that one to be specific?"
Hawaii:"I hate gluten! Now go grab the poino(damn) 'Ulu flour!"
America:"That is the 2nd time she's ever cursed in her life...."
I just blink as I watch her climb onto a cabinet handle of an open cabinet door, climb onto the cabinet door itself, and almost falling off it. But thankfully she pulled out her switch blade and dug it deep into the...marble..... counter....
Wyoming:"Did you juzt break fuh marble counter?!"
Alaska:"Flex tape anyone....?"
Wyoming and Hawaii shake their heads.
Alaska groaned as she continued to get onto the counter and then open one of the cabinets to grab the flour Hawaii is damaging to be used in whatever this is.
Alaska:"Alright I got the- is that coconut water and coconut milk..."
Hawaii:"And dried star fruit! I also got some ka lei eggs!"
Russia:"Why do you...."
Alaska:"What- what the ебать(fuck)-"
Wyoming shrugged and went head first into the cabinet full of pots,pans, bowls, and many many other things I don't know the name of.
He came out with a pot, a cookie cutter, a whisk, and a bowl.
I then watch them dump everything into the bowl and take turns stirring it around.
Alaska also added baking soda and baking powder because thanks to Belarus we all learnt that if it doesn't have baking soda and baking powder it'll taste like shit.
Alaska:"Ok Hawaii, I gotta ask, what the actual hell are we making?"
Hawaii:"I don't... I don't know actually-"
Alaska just ended up putting the bowl in the oven at 450 and just waited.
Alaska:"You're eating this because I hate coconut."
Once the bowl was in we stepped in and cleared our throats.
America:"What is going on here?"
Alaska:"Believe it or not, this wasn't my idea this time."
Russia:"We know, we were spying on you little shits this whole time."
Hawaii went ghostly white.
Wyoming just stepped closer to Alaska as if to say this is Hawaii's problem.
Hawaii:"Traitors!"
Alaska:"You're the one who told Queens I like him!"
Russia:"Wait what- since when- that's a later problem- the right now problem is who's gonna eat that.... Whatever that is..."
Wyoming:"Alazka zaid Hawaii waz going to eat it."
Alaska:"Because she is. She dragged us out of my room where we were reading together, told us we were going to make breakfast, yelled over every recipe I suggested, decided that mixing things together and hoping things would work out would be the best idea, and put way too much coconut into it."
Hawaii:"I hate Belarusian food."
Alaska:"Those were Russian!"
Hawaii:"Oh-"
Alaska puffed up her cheeks and stormed away, Wyoming quickly following her.