Our Secret (Jolinsky)(BoyxBoy)

Ch.38

There I actually posted during the day and not at like 11:30 at night aha.

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Sammy pov

Nate and I have been fighting a lot lately but I mean it's not that bad... I guess.

We have gotten mad at each other over really stupid shit but I mean in what relationship don't you fight? Right?

I guess we are fighting a little excessively and we could just stop getting mad at each other but.. Uhm.. I don't know.

It's your fault Sam..

Yeah I know.

You always start it but you're the one that is keeping something from him. (Comment what you think he's hiding from him!)

I can't tell him...

Yeah you can but you're a pussy so you don't do it.

I can't it would crush him...

So?

So?! So?! I love him too much to hurt him...

Nate pov

Sammy and I are fighting a lot.. It's always my fault I can't do this anymore. I love him but I don't know how much I can deal with this.

It's not your fault Nate..

Yeah it is..

He's keeping something from you..

No he's not. How would you know?

I do. Maybe he's cheating on you.

No he's not. He loves me too.. just as much as I love him.

Does he?

What if he actually doesn't.. I mean yeah he does... Right?

I should call him...

I dial his number quickly and he doesn't pick up..

His voicemail is still the one of us both...

"Hey it's Sam!"

"AND NATE! "

"Shhh babe. I can't come to the phone right now, Leave a message and I'll call you back when it's convenient for me. Bye."

I hang up and start crying.

WHY ARE YOU CRYING?! IT'S HIS FAULT HE'S LYING TO YOU.

No.. he-he's not...

Yeah he is get over it. You got played.

B-but..

But nothing . It's true.

Jj pov

Jack and I are so happy together. We're talking about moving to California in a couple months so we can start recording more music with our producer Pierre. (SHOUT OUT PIERRE. HE'S ACTUALLY THE BOMB DOT COM AHA)

We are also looking for a house in California. He wants a big house but I kind of don't want one too big. It seems like Jack wants the biggest house on the block.. I know that if we get a massive house I'll be stuck always cleaning it.

"Babe, We need a big house so we can have massive parties like all the time!"

He doesn't listen to me.

'Jack I hate parties' 'Jack I don't want to clean a massive house.' 'I don't think we need that big of a house.'

None of it gets to his brain.

"Oh..Okay..."

"Perfect! See it's so much nicer when we agree on things! Big house it is!!"

It's not that I don't like parties it's just they tend to get out of control and I always end up having a panic attack. I hate that feeling. I feel like I shouldn't be there or like nobody wants me to be there. It's such a bad feeling but I can't tell Jack. I always disappoint him when it comes to social things or just in general. I'm a disappointment to him he deserves better...

"Here we go hun.." Blah blah blah Big house. Over 3500sq ft! 4.5 bathrooms, 4 Bedrooms! In our price range.

Why do we need 4 bathrooms?! Why does the house have to be so god damn big?! What the fuck is wrong with a nice quaint house with like 3 bathrooms and 2 maybe 3 bedrooms. All we need is a room for us and a spare room. The third if we got a third could be a recording room for off-days and making random songs but I mean there's probably an office that we could transform into that room.

I don't know how I feel about Jack's judgement anymore.

"Yeah. Well we're going to California on Monday and we're going to stay there for like 2 weeks so anytime between then would be perfect."

He's talking to a fucking realtor. I hate the house already and I don't even know which one he's talking about..

I had e-mailed the realtor of this nice little house and I'm going to go see it when were there so maybe we could get this house instead of his stupid massive house.

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