Plus One. ~ Sequel to 'Love Unlocked.'

Chapter 3 Part 1: I Can't Take This.

(^Outfit^)

Cassidy:

I roll over and get out of bed, this is the 9th time tonight that Ava has started crying. I walk through her door and pick her up out of her cot.

"What is it you want this time?" I ask taking her into the kitchen. "A bottle?"

I make her one and sit down on the sofa to feed her. Once I've done that and shes calmed down, I burp her then take her back into her room. I place her back in her crib then head back into my bed.

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I wake up at 7am and creep into the living room trying not to wake Ava. I turn on the tv and sit on the sofa. I grab my phone and check twitter. Nothing new so I lock my phone. 

"Morning beautiful." Pel says sitting next to me.

"Hey!" I say hugging him.

"Ava cried alot last night didn't she." Perri says sighing.

"You got that right!" I say raising my eyebrows. "Have you got rehearsals today?"

"Only tonight."

"Okay cool!" I say standing up and heading into the kitchen. "Do you want anything?"

"No thanks, I'm okay."

I place my bread into the toaster and push down the handle. That's when Ava starts screaming.

"I'll get her!" Pel calls heading into her room.

She carries on screaming for what seems like forever.

"Are you okay?" I call over the screaming.

"Yeah, she just doesn't like her nappy being changed."

Ava stops crying so I head into our room to get changed. I pull out today's outfit and put in on. I leave my hair in its natural wavy form and head over to my makeup drawers. I start to apply my makeup when Pel comes rushing in.

"Ash has called an emergency meeting! I've got to go to the studio now." He says pulling on his jeans.

"Oh okay, when will you be back?" I say concentrating on my liquid eyeliner.

"I'm not sure babe. I will text you later." He says kissing my cheek. "Bye!" He calls as he shuts the door.

I finish my makeup and head back into the living room. I grab my dance written work and sit on the sofa beginning to carry on my coursework. I get through half a page before Ava pipes up.

"Great." I say to myself.

I head into her room and make her another bottle. Once I've fed her, I take her into the bathroom and bathe her. I dry her off and put her in today's outfit. I put her in a little white t-shirt, some blue dungaree's and a pair of white converse. I carry her into the living room and put her in the swinging cot that Perri's mum brought her.

"Can mummy please get on with her school work?"

I pick up my folder and carry on my work. I hardly get any done before she starts to cry again. I pick her up and rock her, that doesn't work. I check if her nappy needs changing- its clean.

"What's wrong!?" I say starting to get flustered.

I call Sadie asking what I should do, but she's busy so she doesn't answer. I decide to call my mum.

'Mum?' I say down the phone.

'Hey hunny.'

'Ava won't stop crying. I don't know what to do.' I say pleading.

'Does she need anything?'

'I don't know! I've checked everything and nothings wrong. Can you come over please?'

'Sorry Cassidy, I can't. I'm taking Alex and Dan to the cinema...'

'Oh really?' I say frustrated.

'Sorry hun.' She says.

'No, don't worry!' I shout. 'Taking your other kids to the cinema is obviously more important then helping your 16 year old daughter trying to stop her baby from crying. No you carry on! Go to the cinema! I will struggle on my own..' I say loudly down the phone before I cut it off.

My mum tries to call me back- I don't answer it. I stay at home for another hour trying to calm Ava down. My mum never comes around to help. Thanks mum.

I place Ava in her pram, grab all my things in a hurry and slam the door behind me. I steam over to Dancework and head into reception.

"Someone looks angry..." Dani says from behind the desk.

"I can't take this any more..." I say sighing into the sofa putting my head in my hands. "I haven't slept right in 4 weeks. Ava won't stop screaming. I can't get my school work done. And to top it off... My mum would rather take her other kids to the cinema than come and help me with Ava screaming!"

Dani comes and sits next to me sighing. "I know it's hard- and your mum should help you. But you can't just give up on Ava now! She's a month old and needs you. I will try and calm her for you..." She goes over to Ava and picks her up. After about 5 minutes she calms down.

"I know what it is..." I say looking up. "I'm a crap mum! That's it! I'm too young and I can't look after a kid- I'm a kid myself!" I say shaking my head. "I'm just a bad mum..."

"No you not!" Dani says sitting down next to me with Ava asleep in her arms. "Your learning. Trust me, your doing a better job than I did when I had my first child." 

I'm so exhausted and drained I can't cry anymore.

"What was all the screaming?" Ashley asks walking into reception followed by the boys. "Cassidy?" He says shocked.

"What's wrong?" Jord asks. "Pel, I think your needed." He says calling Perri.

"She's fine." Dani says. "Just tired, that's all."

"Babe?" Pel says taking Ava from Dani. "What's wrong?"

"Ava wouldn't stop crying at all. She was just screaming! So I called my mum- she couldn't come and help me because she was taking Dan and Alex to the cinema. I didn't know what to do..." I say sighing. "Now I feel stupid!" I look at the boys.

"You should of called me." Perri says putting his arm around me.

"But Ash called you in for an emergency meeting."

"Cassidy, you and Pel have a baby!" Ash says. "I don't mind if you call, if you need help!" He smiles at me.

"I just couldn't take it any more..." I say taking Ava. "And my mum just frustrated me even more."

"That's ridiculous!" Jordan says. "She should of helped!"

"I don't care anymore I'm done with them now..."