I will never be his truly

Chapter 18: Taking lead

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I get back home frustrated with the picture Jasper sent me he makes me so mad sometimes I wonder if will he even get a girl to handle him.

Once I'm in my apartment the first thing I do is go straight to Jaspers's room only to see a note on his door saying he went to his art studio so convenient for Jasper I thought.

I go to my room to see Ares fast asleep on my bed and I sigh just great. I then hear him mumble, "Sorry Rhea."

I get changed into comfy pajamas and make me some coco as today was one heck of a day. I message James to say I had a great time when I didn't but he doesn't have to know.

I go into my lounge sit on the couch and put on a good Turkish show I'm currently watching Yali Capkini. I also take out some Oreo ice cream as I have been craving some all day.

As I'm eating and paying attention I don't realize Ares comes out to sit on the couch both of us not saying anything.

Well, this is awkward I thought. I am the first one to break the silence, "Why are you still here?" I ask him he turns to look at me and puts my feet on his lap.

"Because I want to be here," he says massaging my feet and I moan he smirks okay I need to stay focused he is just using his blackmail method.

"Can I ask you something why are you behaving this way all of a sudden?" I ask him.

He looks me in the eye with emotion I can not quite figure out yet, "The truth is ever since you came back in my life I found myself thinking about you 24/7 as you were in my mind most of the time you returned a piece of a heart that was never mine to keep" he says looking at me

"Do you even love Kylie?" I ask him because if you love someone you don't cheat on her.

He looks at me and then away, "I thought I loved her but I think I loved the idea of her" he says.

I take the spoon of ice cream licking it from the spoon as it tastes so yummy but Ares grabs the spoon out of my hand puts his mouth in his mouth and licks it making eye contact with me.

"Yum but I bet something else tastes better," he says smirking at me.

"You disgusting," I say and he chuckles

"If you don't love Kylie then why are you still in a relationship with her ?" I ask not getting him

"I don't know but she is not the girl I used to love," he says.

"Maybe you loved the idea of being in love with Kylie and that just faded over time," I say

He looks at me understanding me," Maybe sometimes people can't differentiate between the idea of love or being in love " he says

I look away because the truth is I know I still have feelings for him meaning a part of me still aches for him to be mine.

"Rhe but what I can say is with you I feel different I feel life again. Whenever I see you smile, a smile is instantly brought on my face as you have brightened up my days ever since you came back into my life even if you were a bitch on our first-day meeting again but I would be lying if didn't say it was hot" he says

I don't know where my courage comes from but I jump onto him straddling his lap and plunge my mouth into his. He is still in shock but he kisses me so hard we seem to be both heated. He then takes my shirt off and kisses my breasts over my bra.

I then attack his neck claiming him as mins by sucking it real hard and leaving wet kisses, "Oh my god Rhe" he moans and I smile against his skin.

I hump on his leg as my clit moves against his bulge damn I'm wet I can feel it. Ares then moves his hands up to my thighs close to my bikini line and he gets to my clit and pinches it.