'Sunshine's Embrace'
Glances exchange but no words out,
For some reason your silence is getting too loud,
To be near you, yet out of reach and so far,
In the same room surrounded by peace but our hearts are in a war.
I miss your smile and your voice that soothe my melancholia,
Your smell and your scent questioning me with amnesia,
I miss your touch making me feel the nostalgia,
Regret doesn't lessen the pain but gives me mad insomnia.
I sense heavy storms in your eyes,
I keep telling myself untruth words and merely lies,
Then you decided for us to drift apart,
Even when you know saying goodbye is hard.
For months I held onto your lifeless frame,
Everyone pointing at me finding someone to blame,
I'm fighting myself and hiding the wound that held the knife,
How can I grieve for someone that is still alive?
Now I see your life in motionless pictures without me,
I keep feeding into your wants and leave it to be,
They kept saying I hurt you but wouldn't I receive the same pain?
You tied me up with the 'no answer' chain.
If I knew someday it would turn out this way,
I'd never accept the deal they gave me that day,
My heart keeps screaming your name even in my sleep,
Craving for your touch and dying even just for a peep.
I'm wondering all night where it went wrong,
I always thought in your arms where I belong,
You said you'd die for me, souls trade for mine to be safe,
But now you wouldn't even look at me wailing at our grave.
I am in the haze of losing my temple and my home,
Now I hold on to no faith and forever in roam,
You made me your sky and my heart that you claimed,
But now I'm crying for you to even say my name.
People come and easily they go,
I wish you'd know, whenever you leave, I'll follow,
I'm tired of begging fate to never let you leave,
No one to trust not even you to believe.
I hope one day we will be just fine,
To the time where you'll be calling me thine,
Once again having our hands intertwined,
To be fighting fate just for you to be mine.
tamat.
-2023
