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Head's a mess but my feet keep walking,
Didn't see the entrance,the common sense I'm lacking,
Even when I'm drowning and struggling,
Did I ask for help?Or I was just alone screaming?
My mind was loud but no one could hear,
Every inch of my step only came with fear,
Even when I stood on the fence no one came near,
I always look lost,naive, like a dumb deer.
Every smile that I fake always come by force,
Even when I was walking,my mind went lost,
Every friendship that I make always comes with a cost,
Every word that they said never came as soft.
It is how you were there standing and watching,
The breathless me and the noose that I'm wearing,
You told people I was fine no need to be worrying,
I choked on myself,accepting that I'm dying.
Your words keep on replaying in my mind,
It was like a hurricane nothing came out kind,
I wish I could draw the line,
But our blood kept on connecting I know it wasn't fine.
Please understand I'm tired of trying,
But it's the only thing that make me keep on living,
Because if I woke up and decided to give up,
My mind will go blank and my mouth will keep shut.
tamat.
-2022
