'White Hyacinth'
Every piece of your love vanished with each step that you take,
Sometimes you wonder what kind of decision to make,
No guidance nor a map to carry from an early age,
Writing solely for the memory but they were blank in each page.
You were surrounded by people but loneliness strikes your bone,
Being with your family but you wondered if you're really at home,
You were bleeding from your heart but not where it hit,
You're missing yourself again but you still couldn't find it.
When everyone has two hands to reach out to,
You wondered why you only have one to hold on to,
When you keep stumbling with stupid decision making,
You wondered why it was you they kept on blaming.
When you were forced to give out warmth you never felt before,
Tell me my little hyacinth, does it hurt you even more to the core?
Acing the responsibility that were never yours,
No one hears your muffling cry, once again alone trying to endure.
Even when you're just trying to speak out,
They only think you're being rude trying to lash out,
So you learnt it was better to keep your mouth shut,
But is it good keeping a grudge rotten in your heart?
You were holding a gun aiming at everyone,
But tell me why it was you who insisted to run?
Forever is just a word, nothing will stay and remain,
The same way as your feelings that you're trying to refrain.
Listen now my little hyacinth, please calm down,
The world will keep on moving even when you show it a frown,
The rain will not last forever nor does the sun always shining,
You will never be forgotten and your happiness will be coming.
tamat.
-2023
