'Lilac Clue'
Slow melody playing in a room full of people,
I was gazing at you with a hesitation that I hide in subtle,
I know you were looking after me through your peripheral,
Holding our fate in your hands like it was a gamble.
You try to paint me blue the way it portrays you,
Erase every red in me, stopping myself from being true,
But then turns out I was far away from being blue,
The more lilac I become but you refuse to be my colour you painted new.
Now it feels like I'm drawing love to someone blind,
Talking to a person who's deaf and knows no sign,
Waiting for a respond from a mute that paid no mind,
I'm looking like an idiot, as if it was for you, I still pine.
Looking right into your ocean eyes and wondering what else it can be,
Maybe I come late to realise love comes with a fee,
Making me have this deep urge to drown myself in the sea,
Hoping a shark would come by and eat me.
There's nothing else to declare and say,
I packed my bag and trying to walk away,
But you cling to my dress but your head is facing away,
Maybe for a bit I could stay and hoping you still care?
You saw me for someone no one could even see,
And you treasure me like a rare diamond in a box which you hold the key,
Nothing in this world come for free,
Every 'yes' that came from me but you never argue to agree.
Now I can't find a reason for you to blame,
It's not an affair and you effort to love still the same,
All you did for me was sincere, not even to raise your fame,
But then you refused to change my last name.
tamat.
-2024
