'Reverie Lullaby'
I could be married with 4 kids and people still wouldn't know,
The way I keep my life a secret with no friends and no foes,
Sometimes people think I have revealed everything, there's nothing else to show,
Thunder storm and chaos but I'm sitting still adjusting my arrow.
Some stars take their time to dim,
Like the moon and the star, I'm only reflecting others' light,
Will never be seen by anyone or even by him, when people say "He probably likes you too," I don't even bother to engage in a fight.
But I was like a toy on a rack,
I was only seen,
I was never taken,
I was never touched,
I was never liked and
I was never wanted.
I screamed to the sky and again on my knees I fall,
Sometimes, it's so hard to please people and do it all,
Even when I did, it was never my name that they'd call.
A lover or a partner,
It's sad to think I'll never experience foolish teenage love,
A bit drunk but not sober,
I enjoyed my peace but not one shall lie to God above.
For that one particular person whom I prayed for,
Not even missing one breath of my soul,
Maybe our stars never aligned, not once, not evermore,
Just know my wistfulness for you is out of my control.
This wanderlust that I can't resist nor can I have it my way,
My state of mind that I keep clandestine caught me in the state of oblivion,
Tell me why not even a touch of his skin makes me in this trist, per se,
The thought of his presence creates this earth of misery, a place called heaven.
Calling his name in my dream was all black and white,
It's my own reverie where he would softly call mine,
In this solitude cage where I put myself in a hide,
It only takes one strong desire to leave, but will I ever feel fine?
tamat.
-2024
