'If I die.'
If I die,
Will the world mourn on my death?
Will the world ever remember the date?
Will the world remember what I once said?
If I die,
Will people even care?
Will people put my story to share?
Will people remember the pain I couldn't bare?
If I die,
Will my friends remember my sorrowful face?
Will my friends remember my sadness gaze?
Will my friends remember I told them I'm living a mess?
If I die,
Will my family celebrate my birthday?
Will my family leave me a place when they celebrate the holidays?
Will my family cry on the place I used to lay?
If I die,
Will my cousin miss me in every family occasion?
Will my cousin remember how much I love the smell of the ocean?
Will my cousin remember how much she adore my fashion?
If I die,
Will my brothers keep my room as I'm still in there?
Will my brothers keep a piece of cake just for me to share?
Will my brothers remember my action on patting their head and pull on their hair?
If I die,
Will my father miss the presence of me in the car every morning?
Will my father remember to call out my name every dinner we're having?
Will my father miss to ask me the date of the day every time he is writing?
If I die,
Will my mother remember she once had a daughter?
Will my mother miss the way I scream from my room when she didn't hear?
Will my mother keep my picture in the purse of hers?
Before I die,
I'm sorry,
I suffered.
I chose this.
tamat.
-2019
