Falling Helplessly

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I slowly walked into Jasmine's room and sat down on the edge of her bed. She looked so small, sullen, broken. Knowing that my best friend was the one who had caused all of this pain, well that was an unexplainable kind of sadness, she must've been drowning in pain to have done this to us. 

"Hey, how you feeling?" I asked her as I pulled her into my embrace, trying to ease some of her pain. 

"How do you think?" She replied sarcastically. 

"I know, it won't feel like this forever though." I replied. "And I might be able to help with some of the confusion surrounding it all. Your mum asked me to tell you what happened when you were old enough. So, I'll tell you about her, I'll tell you everything, the whole story, if you'd want that. Maybe it will help you understand." 

"Understand what? How she left all of us? How she chose the easy way out?" Jasmine said anger laced within her words. 

I knew this wasn't going to be easy but I also knew that Jasmine had always wanted answers to what had happened, but now, now I realised that she was scared of the truth, scared to let herself forgive, but most of all scared to grieve all over again. 

Behind this stubborn façade was a scared girl who missed her mother more than anything, which is why I handed her the letter her mother had written for her, knowing that Ella's words would break down Jasmine's walls. 

She threw me a sceptical glare, but took the letter from me anyway, I could see the emotion was over her, I saw the tears glisten in her eyes, saw the horror that her mother had written this, I saw the pain etched into her face, I watched as she longed for the mother in this letter, the mother who loved her, the mother she'd lost.  

"I know that this is a lot and if you don't want to hear from me, I understand, but that letter is just the beginning. Your mum would only have wanted you to have this now I knew her better than she knew herself, she didn't have to tell me. Anyway that's besides the point. Ella asked me to tell you, but you should know that your dad doesn't want to hear it himself or for you to hear it either, but it isn't about him, this is about you and your mother. Ultimately, the decision is yours and no matter what you decide I will respect and your mum would understand as well." I told her once she'd tossed the letter aside and dried her eyes with the back of her hand. 

"Why if she loved me like she she said she did would she leave me. She knew, she had to have done, what leaving would do to not only me, but you and uncle Henry and Dad." Jasmine replied. 

"To answer that would be to meet Jesus on Earth. Only, Ella truly knows why she did what she did and we will never know and may never truly understand, but I'm offering to tell you Ella's story from the beginning what I know that others don't. If you do choose to listen to Ella's story it will then be your decision as to how to perceive your mother, only then will you have all the facts. The truth." I said with a sad smile. 

"Tell me."

Just two simple words that would change everything she thought she ever knew about her family. Those two words, six letters, would change her life forever.