Falling Helplessly

Epilogue - The hardest part

Ella - Ten years later 

I used to think like so many others that when you died that was it. There was nothing more, but for me that wasn't the case. It wasn't heaven or anything of the sort, it was a strange place. One moment you could be with deceased loved ones ; the next you could be on Earth watching the people you love. It felt like I didn't have a choice where I was, it was more wherever I was needed I would be.

I saw in the days after my death how broken Alfie was without me and it quite literally broke my heart in two to see him struggling that much without me. 

Watching him fall apart day after day to the point where I was, there was no other way to describe it other than heart breaking. 

I was thankful that Alfie got the chance to see me once more, for I recognise that our goodbye over here was what saved him, knowing that I was at peace. 

Over the years I've watched my friends and family grow up and move on with their lives. I watched my daughter grow up into the beautiful woman that she is today. I watched her get married and start a family with a child and a husband of her own and I couldn't be prouder of her. 

I watched as every day that passed helped Alfie move on from my death, though he never moved on from me. 

On the night of Jasmine's wedding a year ago was the last time I was truly needed the last time I stood by their side, for they had begun to finally and truly heal from the absence of me. 

Underneath the moonlight I walked away from them knowing my job was done. Jasmine was married and happy. Jodie was dating the man she would spend the rest of her life with. Henry was well fooling around with any girl he could, no change there. Lauren was still happily living with her girlfriend and they had adopted a child together. Becky was travelling the world with her boyfriend. And Alfie, finally had gotten his life back on track he refused to love anyone else other than me, but he was working again and spending time with Henry and Jodie, he was always there for Jasmine and her family whenever he was needed and he'd finally started getting his happiness back. 

They were all happy and had found the strength within them to move on from me and begin their new lives, for now anyway but we all knew that I was waiting for them, longing for the day I would be in Alfie's embrace again, when I could hold Jasmine in my arms and reassure her how much I loved her, to laugh with Jodie again. It would just take a few decades longer ....