Falling Helplessly

Twenty seven - Talking to the moon

Jodie - Two weeks after Alfie's accident 

Alfie had slowly been getting his strength back so me and him had decided to take Jasmine to the beach today, so she could have some fun and normality for once. 

Jasmine was building sand castles a few metres away from us so I used this opportunity to ask Alfie about what Henry had told me about from the accident. 

"Are you going to tell me about what happened when you were all out of it? Henry told me you kept mumbling stuff about Ella." I asked him. 

He sighed and stared straight ahead at the sea before he began. "I don't even know how to explain it, she was standing there like an angel, I couldn't take my eyes off her. She told me I had to come back to Jasmine but that she'd wait for me. It hurt, it felt like I'd just got her back and I was losing her all over again, but we got our goodbye." 

"I'm so happy you got to see her again and you know now that just because she's gone you don't have to be gone as well, you get to live. I feel like only now I am just beginning to finally get the real Alfie back." I said through tears as he pulled me into his embrace. 

"Every day's still as painful but I intend to follow through with the promise I made to my girl." Alfie replied. 

He was breaking my heart more and more with every word he spoke as I have never really believed in an afterlife. I believed that once you were dead, you were simply gone, that nothing followed after but Alfie had seen her, he saw Ella even if it wasn't real, Ella has brought us all a sense of relief knowing that she is okay and no longer suffering. 

At the exact moment that Alfie finished recounting what had happened with Ella, the sea came in and splashed all of us. I looked at Alfie as we both broke out in laughter. For us, it felt like a sign that Ella was with us right now. 

Alfie then went to help Jasmine on her quest to build the biggest sandcastle ever, giving me a moment alone. 

"Thankyou Ella, for saving him once more." I whispered feeling stupid talking to myself knowing full well that the likelihood of Ella actually being with us was slim to none, but then again I had nothing to lose. 

Alfie was sure he'd made the right decision but I knew all too well from what he'd said that even just four months apart from Ella he couldn't help but feel the slightest pierce of sadness that he had forgotten the precise blue of her eyes and the depth of her laugh that filled him with such joy.