Falling Helplessly

Eighteen - One more light

"Ella took two days writing her goodbye letters, she knew for sure that she would be leaving us soon, nothing now could change her mind. 

The day she died, Ella and Alfie were at home, cuddled up on the sofa together watching a movie, when they received a phone call saying that you had fallen whilst at your friends house so their parents had taken you to the hospital thinking you may have broken your wrist. 

Ella couldn't bare to see you one last time, as she didn't want to say goodbye to you since she knew wouldn't be able to leave you. So, Ella took a deep breath and knew that this was her chance to get the house to herself. 

Ella turned to Alfie and said "Go to Jasmine, I've got a delivery coming that I can't miss, but tell Jasmine I love her, to be brave and that I'll see you both in a little while." 

Alfie didn't understand why Ella wasn't prioritising Jasmine, but he simply hugged Ella goodbye and rushed to the hospital to be by your side, arriving just as they were about to x-ray your arm. 

As soon as Alfie walked out of the house, Ella broke down in tears, she could no longer handle the pain of her life, she couldn't live one moment longer, she thought it would be better to leave for all of us. 

A shattered heart loses pieces of itself every time it is put back together, your mother's heart had been destroyed so many times there was no putting it back together anymore. 

Ella took a knife and held it against her wrist as she dragged the blade across, she watched as the blood spilled spilled out. She began to feel dizzy almost as if she was in a daze, she knew it was the end for she couldn't live in a world as selfish and cruel as this one. 

Lauren had arrived at Ella's house wanting borrow some clothes, unbeknown to Ella, only Lauren found Ella unconscious, surrounded by blood. Falling to her knees she clung to her sister whilst calling an ambulance, desperately trying to save her sister's life. 

In Ella's final moments, for the first time she wasn't scared, she had been granted the freedom she'd longed for, for death to free her. Her blood now flowing in synch with her tears, finally, in synch, her body knew she had been defeated for her heart and soul had no fight left to give. 

That was the day your mother died and just because your mother chose to end her life and didn't love you in the way you wished her too, does not mean she didn't love you with everything she had because she loved you more than anyone and she would have done anything for you. 

Alfie was broken in the weeks that followed Ella's death, for a while he said that he hated her but in the end, he grew to realise that he didn't, that he never had. He hated himself for loving her unconditionally, for allowing himself to giver her his all, only for it to end in his heart broken and a future without her. 

Alfie never did get his happy ending with the girl of his dreams but equally he knew that he was the Romeo to her Juliet, but in this case, only one of them met their fate."