"Your mum was now twenty two and she just wasn't recovering, in fact she seemed to becoming more depressed by the minute, though this time she hid it well, shockingly well.
Ella just wouldn't help her anymore, she'd given up, I saw it in her writing, her poems became increasingly darker and even morbid. I think Ella thought if she wrote down some of the thoughts on her mind they'd disappear, but they never did.
She started cutting again, but this was when Alfie saw how much she was deceiving everyone. He saw the marks straight away, planting kisses over them as he cautiously spoke to her about it. Ella told him that it was the only thing that offered her a small reprise from the pain she felt inside.
Alfie couldn't stop her, in fact he didn't even try as he knew it was the lesser of two evils. Alfie realised he could lose her if she didn't have something that could calm her mind, so he told her to be careful, both of them knowing how consuming the darkness cutting provided could be.
Overtime, Ella began to seem happier, she spent as much time with you as she could, taking you on days out either to the zoo or the cinema and if not that ice skating.
Ella began to understand that life was not always perfect, in fact it hardly ever was. She started confiding in Alfie again, becoming vulnerable, lying in his arms, crying into his chest, taking his hand when the voice in her head was too loud.
Alfie hated her parents for the trauma they'd allowed Ella to witness, he knew Ella's father was what had originally pushed her over the edge. Alfie saw that Ella would never be the same as she was ultimately traumatised from the past and nothing would ever help her move on.
For the next year, Alfie saw the girl he'd fallen in love with, she'd always been there he just rarely got to see that happy side of her anymore and for the first time in years Alfie's fear of losing Ella had subsided for Ella seemed genuinely happy, though now we realise it was always a façade. Ella never wanted us to worry about her and to be honest, I think she wanted us to remember her being the carefree girl we all missed."
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Falling Helplessly
RomansShe was a mother, a daughter, a sister, a best friend and a girlfriend. She was loved by so many but she had a past that haunted her and a mind that controlled her. She couldn't break free, so she chose to leave it all behind including the two peopl...
