Worth the Shot - JENLISA collection

tayo lang pt2 (T)

A/N: Super late. But here you go :)

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I saw the fear in her eyes when Gio kept pushing with his questions.

"Nag pregnancy test ka na ba? Better yet let's see a doctor," pagpupumilit ni Gio, his hand on her wrist, "Please, babe?"

She's worried and nervous. I can tell.

Hindi na niya ako matingnan sa mata. She's lost in her own thoughts.

"Jennie... breathe," I reminded her, hindi ko na mapigilan ang mag-alala.

A lone tear rolled down her cheeks.

Lumapit ako, akmang pupunasan 'yung luha niya but Gio beat me to it.

When I tried to hold her hand to soothe her, she quickly dodged it. I felt a pang in my chest.

Putangina.

Hindi napansin ni Gio 'yon, he was too busy worrying when he cupped her face. "Let's go see a doctor today, okay?"

Jennie looked at him, eyes still glossy as she slowly nodded.

My heart slowly broke into pieces.

I looked away when he kissed her forehead. "I'll call my cousin for an appointment," sabi niya bago lumabas, hawak-hawak ang phone niya.

Jennie and I were left alone there.

Napahinga akong malalim, my hand frustratedly running on my hair. I don't know what to say. Kanina lang, ang saya-saya namin.

Am I losing her again?

"T-This is unfair to you," tears suddenly kept rolling down her cheeks, "I'll only keep hurting you."

"That will only happen if you'll keep on chosing someone else," bulong ko. "For once, will you choose me? Please?"

"But if I'm... if I'm having his baby—"

"Wala ka bang tiwala sakin?" pagod nang tanong ko, nanlulumo. "Pero puta, ano namang laban ko kung gusto mong bumuo ng pamilya kasama siya?"

"Lisa..." she sobbed.

I just realized how selfish it was to beg her to stay with me. How selfish it was to make her choose me in that situation. This is her future we're talking about... and her baby, if she really is pregnant.

And I know she's scared to burden me. Kita ko naman sa pag-aalala sa mga mata niya. Natatakot siya hindi lang para sa sarili niya... she's scared that I'll still beg her to stay and be burdened for the rest of my life.

"Let's stop this," she says in a whisper. Sana hindi ko na lang narinig, pati 'yung mga hikbi niya.

"Ayaw mo na?" tanong ko, nakatingin lang sa mga mata niya, pinipigilang maluha rin. "You know I'll stay as long as you want me to. Kasi I want to stay, Jennie."

Her lips quivered as she shakes her head. "Ayoko na."

Tangina.

Ginawa ko naman lahat.

Pinigilan ko naman. Tapos pinaglaban. It wasn't enough to keep her in my life.

Dito rin pala mauuwi.

"Babe, okay na 'yung appointment. Tara na?" Gio came barging in. "Hey, you're crying?"

Hindi ko pa rin maalis 'yung tingin ko kay Jennie. I forced a smile at her, "Ingat kayo."

Gio looked at us back and forth, pero tumango na lang before going to Jennie to soothe her. Tumalikod na ako kasi hindi ko na kayang tingnan.