SULLY'S MUSICAL GRIAN ONESHOTS!! ✨

Touchy Feely Fool

breaks over angsts back

>:D

ive wanted to do an AJR song forever bc the album maybe man is just SUCH A MOOD

this is not concerning. no, it's not. stop making something out of depressing music

ANYWHO

- kindof traditional songfic?

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Grian sunk to the floor, numb to the screaming. It'd be ok, right? Better knock on wood. Grian seemed to do that alot, hoping he'd wake up the next morning & at the same time hoping the opposite. The avian wished he'd have even the slightest sliver of self-preservation to fend Iskall's angry yelling off, and yet, he did nothing.

You could scream, You'll wish me dead..

But I'll crawl back to you tomorrow, why the hell can't I get mad?

Iskall's screaming only grew in intensity with the silence he received. Mumbo backed up, frightened of the cyborg's wild anger. Grian wished it was over, he wished it was years in the future when they'd look back and think this was funny. He wants to skip all the hopeless begging  and apologizing. 

" WHY CAN'T YOU JUST STAY THE FUCK AWAY, YOU TOUCHY-FEELY FOOL"

Grian winced at the insult, the first reaction. It reminded him of his nickname, back with Them...

" Fool, hurry up."

" Yes, 1."

" Did I say you could address me? Xelqua. You must realize your place here."

#1's tone grew darker. Grian shivered at it, walking faster and sealing his lips. Clearly it wasn't fast enough, for #1 grabbed his arm and dug their sharp-as-knives nails into his arm. Scarlet blood flowed down his pale skin, unlike #1's innately shadow-like appearance.

God, why was life so cruel?

The screaming was subsiding, Iskall was almost out of breath. Grian wished he wasn't on the verge of crying, he wished he didn't care. God, not caring would be so nice. He could've made it through life without all of his petty trauma, without the scars.

Maybe he would've been a better Watcher.

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Well, I'm not too claustrophobic..

 But I loose my breath sometimes.

As the yelling subsided and Grian had nothing tethering him to the meeting room, he stood up and simply walked out. Inside, however, he needed to get out. It was too tight, too packed, he was in a cage- a mental one at that. He still remembers first entering the cage, trying to block everything out.

" I will teach you to be ruthless. You will make a good Watcher, Xelqua. But first, we need to rid you of your stupid little concise."

Grian wished that had worked, that he could face this without feeling his fragile, pathwork heart shatter a million times over. As he walked out, his speed gradually increasing, Grian wished he was anywhere else. Anyone else. 

I'm better off a stick, I'm better off a stone. I'm better off a jerk, I'm better off alone.

I'm better not feeling stress or feeling bliss

Grian wished he didn't have the stupid feelings that got in the way of everything. He'd be so much better if he felt nothing, then he wouldn't be feeling this sinking despair & dread & fear & anxiety, & sadness all in one.

Alas, Grian has come to accept that fate despises him.

I'm screwed.

But hey, what can you do?

I'm a touchy feely fool

 Grian walked out of Sahara, spread his wings, and lifted off. He tried to pick up the shattered pieces of his heart and his facade, bury them under the ocean of emotions raging inside him like a mid-winter storm, but he couldn't. So Grian chose the next best option, slapping a faux smile up. He'd pretend he wasn't crying, that he wasn't about to loose his friends because of a potato.

Grian wished he didn't care. He'd give anything, anything to not care.

All Grian could do was look forward to the future, when everyone would laugh about it. When everything would be ok. He'd laugh the loudest, too, because he'd finally be past it. He wouldn't be right here anymore, in the present-past.  He'd be in the future.

Grian wanted to be in the future, he wanted to laugh like that. Someday, his cruel mind whispered.

He would do anything, too, to be in that future.

But, life is so cruel, for a touchy feely fool...

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wow

THAT WAS ALSO SHORT AF

damnn

ok ok the next one will be longe rdw