Love met in the wrong place

SAVANNAH LILAC ADAMS

I wonder how I sleep at night, knowing that I am only asleep with my body and that my mind is all screaming at you.

I stand in the open doors and see my sister, smile, laugh, and fool around with Lucas. She takes off with him with a car blowing up with songs and I realize I feel nothing but annoyance towards her and all those they are together.

"Those kids are wild," Lucas says beside me and I turn to glare at him.

"Did she tell you where they were going?" I ask him but he shakes his head.

I want to hiss in annoyance but I realize why should it bother me so much. I have my ways to keep up with that slay girl.

I walk inside and up to my room feeling annoyed with what my sister just did.

Why did she have to show off in front of me like that with Lucas?
I hate how every time I try to make things right with her she always does something like this.

"Arrhh," I say feeling like I am gloating inside of me. I reach for my phone and track her down.
She seems to be still moving and I wonder where she is heading at.
One thing is for sure, I know she is not going somewhere with the Rwema. She is using them like a bait to go and sneak around doing things she is been doing with men I don't know who they are yet, like she did last time.

But I wonder why she would pull Lucas into her sneaky sketchy life.
It's clear she isn't into him, why can't she leave him up to me?

Thinking of my sister angers me a lot and I reach forward and throw my comforter and sheets away.

"Damn little bitch."
Why did my life have to turn like this and not Samantha's?
Where did I go wrong?
There she is having a time for herself while I am here being the loser that she's always been.

I don't even want to be here and keep feeling like a loser, I realize even though she is living a life that used to be mine in America, she is still neglecting our family.
Which can be a tool that I can use to get back to her.

I walk out of my room and go look for my mother and Yarrow who are in the living room talking.

"Hey, guys," I say to them.

"Already bored?" Yarrow asks and I nod my head.

"Yeah, for how long is Samantha not going to be here?"

"She is coming back Wednesday?" I nod my head and walk to sit beside my mother.

"That long?" I ask turning to my mother.
"I thought it was only for the weekend." She smiles at me.

"I know, I know my sweet lilac. I don't think I will also survive that long without her too because I don't know why, but sometimes I crave her cooking."

"You guys stop acting like you spent so much time with her. Would you be exaggerating about Dad if he were to leave for those days? Sam has also not been here with us. It's like she is found a new family in her work." Yarrow says and I narrow my eyes feeling angrily and annoyed at him.

What is it with him always defending Samantha?

"Don't say it like that Yarrow, because if you asked me. I see much of Lily Samantha than I see much of you and your sister here." Mom says and I frown.

"Mom," I say trying to argue a case and she shrugs her shoulders.

"It's the truth." She says and I sigh defeatedly feeling the annoyance eat me alive.

Why is she still ruining things when she is not even here?

I turn to my mother and smile at her.
"Then let's do something to make up for the lost time, let's do something with you now that we are here." She looks taken back but she regains her composure back before she offers me a smile.