Eclipse {Ravi Singh}

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disclaimers: I don't own ggbb and don't get a bunny there's a reason those little shits are used by magicians.

"I love you."

ravi whispers to amaris' sleeping form, he knew she couldn't hear him and that was the point. somehow he needed to work up the courage to say it to her face and this was the first step, so as he watched her sleep kept whispering it to her.

"I love you."

he really meant it, he was just so scared to admit it to her, he was scared she wouldn't love him back, he was scared it was too soon, he was scared she wouldn't believe him, he was scared she'd break up with him, because why would someone so fucking perfect like her want to be with him.

"I love you."

a new wave of fear washed over him. why was she with him? she didn't need him she was perfect in every way possible, so why the hell was she with him?
his breath quickened as a thought crossed his mind.
what if their relationship was like that one in the stupid love movie amaris and nisha always made him watch. what if she was getting played to date him or she was doing it to win a bet? what if the second he told her he loved her she laughed in his face and told him that everything he felt was one sided, that she didn't even care about him. what if-
amaris shifts, somehow cuddling closer to his chest, "your hearts racing." she mumbles her voice low from still being half asleep.
"is it?" he asks.
"mhm, here" amaris grabs his wrist and directs his hand to rest over his heart, "feel."
"mm, I guess it is." he nods before moving his hand so it held the side of her face.
"what're you thinking about? what's got your heart speeding?"
"you." it wasn't a lie per say it just wasn't the full truth but when a small smile graces her face he couldn't help but feel guilty.
amaris groans when her phone beeps, "can you hand me that?" she points to her phone that was on the other side of the bed. ravi laughs before reaching over and grabbing it.
"hello?" amaris answers her phone, "oh, you know I kinda assumed hawkins wouldn't listen ...... it's okay pip, we know what not to do this time it won't turn out like last time. it'll be okay..... alright I'll be over in a minute, love you pipsqueak."
"you have to go?" ravi asks
"mhm," amaris hums with a frown, her eyes flitting over his face. "I wish I  could stay here with you though."
"yea?" he whispers, as her fingers outline his face. she nods and he laughs, "well I could always kidnap you and keep you in my room forever."
"yea fucking right, pip would come banging this door down after a week."
"a week? if you think she'd wait that long then your crazy."
"you think so?"
"yea," he breathes out as his fingers slip just under her shirt. "you and josh are pips top priority, you worry about her too much to actually notice that."
"okay fuck you, stop shaming me cause I'm worried about my sister."
"I'm not. I just think that you spend so much time focussed on her and her needs that you don't focus on yourself, you put everyone before yourself i- im just worried about you."
amaris frowns at his words, "no I dont." she denies.
"you do, love, you really do." ravis words were gently but they still upset amaris.
her brows furrowed and she moved off his lap and to the side of the bed, "i dont, ravi." amaris winced at the roughness of her tone.
"I don't want you to get upset mari, I'm just worried."
her frown deepens at the use of her common nickname, "I don't want you to worry about me." she admits slowly.
"but I do, and I will because i-" love- no now wasn't the time. "care about you."
"I don't want to be a burden to anybody, you shouldn't worry about me. don't worry about me." amaris mumbles and it's ravi turn to frown.
"mari-"
"are you mad at me? is that why you keep calling me that?"
"what? no, why would be mad at you? I'm not mad at you, I just want you to let someone look out for you in ways that you refuse to do yourself."
"i dont- i dont undersrand, what do you mean?"
"take your sleep schedule for example, you don't care that most night you barely get an hour of sleep, and no one else can care because you won't tell them about it."
"because I don't want them to worry."
"maris," ravis starts, as he moves to crouch in front of her, "do you worry about pip or josh or your parents? or even me."
"of course I do, but it my job to worry about the people I love."
love? had she meant to include him in that category? no. no she couldn't have it was just miswording, plus this wasn't what ravi needed to be focussing on. but maybe she did love him.
"let the people who love you worry about you. let me worry about you." ravi blurts before mentally kicking himself when she freezes, he was right she didn't lo-
"okay."
"okay?"
"okay, you can worry about me or whatever but not alot don't let it take up your time because I'm fine. I'm always fine." amaris whispers with a small smile. although ravi didn't believe the last sentence for a second, he still nodded. "I definitely need to go though. pips gonna kill me."
"yea, okay, I'll walk you to the door." Ravi mumbles standing up and grabbing her hand, as his thoughts drifted to what she had said earlier.

had she really meant it like that? could she love him like how he loved her? oh dear God he really prayed she did, though though it didn't really matter because even if she didn't he would gladly break his heart for his moon

a/n
hi y'all, I really need to drink water but I hate how it has no taste, also I changed my theme