That Butler, Isekaid (Modern!Reader Insert)

That Butler; Turmoil

"I-I... This.. This isn't right... I can't do it C. And you shouldn't either...! You have a fiancé, you've got Lizzy..!"

_______ exclaims, shaking their head as they turn away from the young earl. Blush still on their face as they try to snap out of it, and think clearly> "You guys are cousins and that's all weird and stuff but I'm not about to condone to infidelity! You guys are engaged...!"

Ciel's heart sinks as _________ turns away, their words piercing through his desires and awakening his conscience. The reality of his engagement to Elizabeth Midford hits him like a wave, reminding him of the commitment he had made to her. He feels a pang of guilt, realizing the potential consequences of his actions and the betrayal he would be committing.

He moves back a bit, his voice filled with regret and remorse. "You're right, _________. I... I shouldn't have let my desires cloud my judgment. My engagement to Elizabeth is a commitment that I can't disregard, no matter how strong the temptation may be."

The weight of his own moral compass settles heavily upon him, the realization of the consequences of his actions sinking in. He sighs, his voice laced with a mix of sorrow and resignation. "I apologize, _________. I let myself get carried away in the heat of the moment. It was wrong of me to put you in such a position. Our friendship means everything to me, and I wouldn't want to jeopardize that."

"I know you didn't mean it that way, just... You're not in the wrong for having feelings like that..." ________ says, shaking their head as they turn to Ciel again. Eyes slightly blurred, possibly from unshed tears.

Ciel's heart aches at _________'s words, the weight of his desires and the guilt of his actions settling heavily upon him. He reaches out to _________, a mix of remorse and concern in his eyes. "_________, I... I appreciate your understanding, but I can't ignore the consequences of my actions. I made a commitment to Elizabeth, and I must honor that."

He takes _________'s hand in his, his touch gentle and reassuring. "I value our friendship more than anything, and I don't want to lose you because of my own selfish desires. I hope you can forgive me for putting you in such a difficult position."

Ciel's voice softens, his eyes showing a glimmer of vulnerability. "Please understand that my actions were never a reflection of how I feel about you. You're an important person in my life, _________. And I want nothing more than to see you happy, even if it means suppressing my own desires."

He leans in, pressing a gentle kiss to _________'s forehead. "I'm truly sorry for any confusion or hurt I may have caused. I hope we can move past this and continue our friendship, knowing that I will always be here for you, no matter what."

"Love is never easy blud, trust me. Even I myself don't know what goes on with love and all that jazz. I forgive you, don't worry.." __________ smiles softly, hoping to reassure Ciel that he hasn't done anything wrong for finding attraction towards another. Besides, Ciel and Lizzy were cousins. And though in their current time period that isn't considered strange, it's still something __________ finds strange and surreal. And besides the engagement between the two were decided by their parents and not them. If they do find love in another, they can. They should be free enough to love as they please considering their noble statuses.

"Hey, don't beat yourself up about it, kay C? Love is a great thing, and I praise ya for being as committed as you are. But you gotta understand as well that love is like that. Don't ever scold yourself for loving. Also also did ya know in the later years that whole arranged marriage stuff isn't a thing?" __________ explains to the earl how relationships are back in her time, explaining that marrying someone of your blood isn't a thing anymore and that it actually causes more complications than anything. Also giving him insight about things concerning marriage in this time that is different in their time...

Ciel listens attentively to _________'s words, his eyes widening with surprise and curiosity. The idea of arranged marriages becoming a thing of the past intrigues him, offering a glimmer of hope for a future where love and personal choice can intertwine.

He takes a moment to process _________'s words, a mix of relief and intrigue washing over him. "No more arranged marriages, you say? That's... that's quite fascinating, _________. It gives people the freedom to choose their own partners based on love, rather than societal expectations."

A small smile tugs at the corners of Ciel's lips, a sense of hope rekindling within him. "Perhaps there is a possibility for me to find my own path, to seek love in a way that aligns with my own desires. The thought is both exhilarating and daunting, but I'm grateful to have you by my side, _________. Your wisdom and perspective have always been a source of comfort to me."

He reaches out and gently brushes _________'s cheek, his touch warm and affectionate. "Thank you for reminding me that love should never be something to scold oneself for. I will keep your words close to my heart..."

"No probs C..." _________ exclaims lightly, a bit flustered by Ciel's affectionate action. Still recovering from the fact that Ciel basically confessed he loves them and such...