The Liar And Her Love

Chapter 78:

Oct'33

All of us rushed to the hospital, Rona did not say a single word or shed a single tear even once.

There were a lot of nurses when we entered the room. Her mother barely looked like a human there. Rona still didn't cry,

Her mother looked at her as soon as Rona entered.

"My baby" she said and I looked at the nurses signalling them to leave. I saw Ryan who was holding onto Rona's hand tight. Suddenly my hands went towards Jimin's. As if he just knew, he held them tighter.

I looked at ven and we came into a silent agreement to exit the room when Rona spoke.

"Please stay, all of us here, I want my people around me now" She whispered enough for us to hear.

"I'm sorry my baby. I have only ever made you suffer. Never protected you when you were pushed by your dad or when he beat you to shit. I was so scared, so scared to even move when he beat you, I would be pealing onions pretending it's totally normal while your father beat you up. I was scared he will do that to me too."

God, she is just like my father, a bystander.

"As a mother I shouldn't have been relieved that it was someone else who got hit not me. You were not someone else, you were my child. Maybe this is my punishment for letting my baby suffer" she said and tried to hold Rona's hand when she pulled her hand away.

"Don't touch me" she said in less than a whisper.

If I had gotten the chance to confront my mother, how would I have done?

This thought fleeted away when I came to a realisation, she would have never listened. The worst thing about her was, she never really even considered maybe Taeri don't deserve all of this.

My eyes fell on Sarang who was by our side, she looked nervous. I sighed and lifted her up in my arms and she looked at me before pushing herself on me and hugging me tight.

This must be very heavy for her, I walked outside of the room holding her, my eyes met Jimin's and I asked him to stay in the room.

I carried Sarang out and sat on the waiting couch outside. She was on my lap.

"was that too much?" I ask and she didn't speak.

"Hana eomma died like that" she said and I paused.

I thought I knew everything about her, I clearly didn't. She didn't ignore hana's death, she just didn't speak about it. Am I becoming the very thing I was scared off? My mother. Who thought she knew everything about me.

I held her arm tight.

"You saw her?" I asked.

She nodded. "Everyone looked at her as she took her last breaths, I was there with appa. Halmeoni and abeoji also said they don't want to see me ever since I and appa took away both of their daughters" Sarang said and I hugged her tight.

"Two daughters?" I asked her confirminh if she knows.

"Hana eomma and umm Nari-" she paused unsure what to call her. "Eomma, she gave birth to you" I told her and she nodded.

"I know"

"Why did you never tell us?" I asked.

"Because dad never spoke about it. It was weird to talk about her. I did not want to" she said and I smiled.

"Do you want your mom back?" I asked the question knowing vet well how this can complicate everything for us. I can ignore Nari suffering but I don't think I can ignore Sarang keeping her issues to herself.

"I want mom" she said and I could hear my heart shatter.

"But not Nari or Hanna eomma, I want you" she said it took me a while to understand what she was talking about.

"What?" I was stunned.

"You attend my athlete meets, no body bullies me since everyone thinks you are my mom now, you buy me everything I ask for, you never say no to me, you take me to the amusement parks, you always smile with me, you always play with me, you also just understand what I want, you never get angry on me and appa is always happy with you. He is never sad like he used to be." She said and I just couldn't understand how such a young girl could be so smart.

But this is what happens to children with dysfunctional housebolds. We just become super smart.

I smiled, I just became a mother in the hospital's lobby. Such a weird way to say it.

"Will you be my eomma?" She asks me and I chuckled.

"I am your eomma, I promise" I said and she smiled before hugging me tight.

Suddenly the door to the hospital room opened and Rona stepped out followed by others. Our eyes met, she walked towards me.

"I stepped out of the room before she took her last breath. I'm very angry, I don't want to give her the satisfaction even if she is dying. I want it to be incomplete for her, she took her last breath by watching my back as I stepped out of the room" she said as Ryan stood in a distance.

I smiled. "It's alright, come here" I said and she sat next to me. I pat her head and both the girls hugged me tight.

"14th October, 12.34am. The death of patient Han bin a" the doctor was audible from here, with that Rona started crying, Ryan walked forward and hugged us.

At this moment I realised, maybe I found family, a better bigger one. My eyes met Jimin's, he had a melancholic smile.

Surrounded with kids I raised and I will raise. I understood I wasn't so hard to love.

I realised, I felt her loss but it wasn't because I felt guilty, it was because I was angry that she couldn't be the mother I wanted or I needed.

And I'll be the mother they need. Jimin walked closer and sat on my side, holding onto Sarang and I.

As a human being I hate my mother, as a mother I despise her and as a daughter I can't forgive her.

Maybe as a woman I understand she had it hard, but everyone does.

So right now, I decided to forget about her. Forget everything she taught me, right here this is my family.