The Liar And Her Love

chapter 36:

Dec'28
Ha na Pov

I sat down on the floor with the support of the basin. I just vomited and there was a lot of blood. It has been more than a year since me and Jimin got married and I became sarang's step mother from her aunt.

My heart goes to Sarang, does she not have the chance to ever experience what being loved by a mother is?

Her birth mother left her and I am bound to leave her. I was tested with 3rd stage cancer. It's  stomach cancer, I have secretly started going to the doctor's but honestly I have no hope.

I just hope I raise Sarang enough that Jimin can raise her later without me too.

I silently cry sitting down. I was trying to be a mother, Jimin and I were friends but we were getting close.

And I will leave just like that, a page at most in everyone's life while my life wasn't even half as long as their's.

Sept'33
Jimin

I waited outside Sarang's school to pick her up. She usually returns home by bus but today I came here since Nari in the morning genuinely scared me.

I had been with Taeri since the morning until she had to leave for a meeting, she took a flight to Japan on an urgent notice because of some emergency.

And I drove her car here to pick Sarang up. I saw Sarang come out with her teacher. I smiled as soon as she saw me and opened my arms.

She came running and then tackled me. "Appa" as she took my name I felt relief.

She is my daughter.

She was unexpected like most gifts are but she was never a mistake.

Never ever.

Her eyes lit up when she looked behind me.

"IS NOONA HERE!?" She screamed and I was confused I looked at my back to see what she was seeing.

Oh the car.

That made me chuckle.

"No, she is not. I'm sorry baby" I said and she immediately got disappointed.

"Excuse me, sir. I would like to talk to you personally" the teacher said and I swear I had flashbacks from my school days.

Minutes later I put Sarang in the car's child speak and buckled her before I went back to the teacher to talk.

"Sir, we don't see you often even on parents teacher meet. We shared a notice through her about your presence required on the open class day, she was the only student who didn't have a parent in the class, we shared a notice asking for your presence for the athlete day followed by parent's day  which is the day after tomorrow. Sarang has been selected for a race and there was no acknowledgement response from you. I hope you are present day after tomorrow. Showing up really matters." She said and I nodded.

Why did Sarang never tell me about it.

I nodded.

"I'll be present, thank you for informing me" I answered and she smiled.

I walked towards the car and sat inside, I took a deep breath before I started the car.

Midway I decided to ask Sarang.

"Sarang" I called her and she looked up at me.

"Are you in a race?" I ask and she looked suprised.

"Yes"

"Why did you not tell me?" I ask her.

She paused.

"You are busy" she said and that broke my heart.

"Why did you not tell me about parents day and open classroom?" I ask

She was quite.
Oh god.
Am I really not a good father.

"Everyone comes there with their eomma. If appa comes alone, appa will not feel nice.  My friends will also say that I have no eomma. I don't like my friends, they laugh at me" Sarang said and the tears kept on flowing from my eyes. I stopped the car and went around to the back seat to hug Sarang while I sobbed.

Before hana was officially hospitalised few years ago she used to look into these matters and now.

I hate how ignorant I am as a father, when I decided to take the responsibility I should have actually taken the responsibility.

"APPA don't cry. Sarang Sarangs you. APPA DONT CRY" Sarang screams and started crying herself and I hugged her tighter.