chapter 41:

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Nov'30

I have been more active as a chairperson of Winston now however I'm still not sure if I want to be a real person in power now. I applied at a lot of universities and APA.

I have been raised to work as the chairperson for so long that it feels weird to do something else. I always wanted to Study psychology but only Study psychology, not pursue it.

I work in research only.

I also applied at yeonsei University for lectureship. In lingering hopes to be connected to him, maybe if I get rejected from a college afflicted to the hospital he works in, maybe I'll move on.

That's what my therapist Mr.Oak said.

It's so annoying that even though I don't want to fall in love and start a family. He still lingers in my mind. He dated multiple people and also had a child and got married to another woman infront of me all while I was still in love with him.

Pathetic.

Sept'33
Taeri


I saw jimin stand just in front of me blocking the woman away from me. He then turned around grabbed my wrist and dragged me from there.

He suddenly took a turn and we were in a room. Trapping me in the wall he starred at me. I swear I could get a cardiac arrest right now.

"W-what?" I ask

He looked extremely angry. "You could have gotten hurt, people could have recorded you. Why did you do that!?" He asked and I flinched.

"Why did you do that!? Do you think it's your place to speak!? You have nothing to your name. The moment I pull back my support you will be on the road begging for alms." My mother's voice resonated.

She used to scream like this, and suddenly I felt dizzy.

"Why are you so reckless? What if she had hit you or something?" Jimin's voice was very vague.

"Jimin wait, don't speak please. Just give me a minute please" I begged and grabbed his arms. I felt him stabilizing me too.

"What? Taeri? Oh god. It's a stress response? Oh my god" I heard him say before he helped me to the teacher's table where I leaned over and sat on the floor while I felt like he scouted down too holding my arms.

"Are you fine?" I could hear him clearly and I sighed running my fingers through my hair. The hat discarded to the side long ago.

I nodded. I got up with his help and he immediately picked up the hate and gave it to me. I looked at him for a second before taking the hat from him and not making an eye contact.

"Don't ask me anything" I said and he shut up.

"C-can you go sit in the stands and give me a minute" I said not looking at him and he nodded nd left.

I took huge breath and looked up before I grabbed my phone and left from there. I need to calm down, she is dead and I am old enough to not be scared.

I walk back to the food stalls and purchased popcorns and soda that the kids were selling. I gave them a 50k won yellow note and they looked at each other.

"We don't have change" they said.

"Keep it" with that I grabbed the tray and left. I heard them cheer and that made me smile.

See money makes people happy and gives me serenity.

My mother's money, My miserable maker. However her money is also what gives serenity.

That's mental damages for me.

I took a huge breath, putting whatever happened somewhere back in my head.

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