Being Brad's Sister

58. Confessions

Emma's pov

I have been back for two days and I have decided that I am going to be completely crazy and tell James exactly how I feel and get it off my chest. If he doesn't like me then at least we will know and I guess it wasn't meant to be but if he does feel the same still then I guess we will see how things go from there. What is the worst that can happen? I have nothing to lose so why not.

I spoke to Brad earlier about coming down to the studios but he doesn't know why I want to come down. Joe said that I can come down whenever I want so I am just leaving the house now. The long I leave it the more chance there is of talking myself out of it. Put it this way, if I don't tell James today then I don't think I ever will tell him how I feel because I will just keep procrastinating and putting it off. I just hope I am doing the right decision by telling him.

Shaking my head to get rid of that thought before I start talking myself out of going to the studios I climb into the car and wait for dad while he locks the door. Seconds later he joins me, flashing me a smile before starting the car and putting his seatbelt on.

"Do they know you are going to the studios yet?"

"Joe knows and so does Brad who has probably told the others but then don't know when or why I am going." Dad nods his head as he pulls out of the driveway.

"And you are sure it is okay for you to go?"

"Dad its fine. Joe gave me the okay to go and I used to go with Brad all the time as long as I don't distract the boys when they are recording they don't mind the only time I am not allowed at the studios is when higher management are there."

"Okay I'm just making sure" he says before going silent. I listen to the faint songs on the radio as I watch the scenery of Birmingham go past while I go over in my head what I am going to say. Do I just say it? Hint it? I don't know.

After what seems like five minutes, because I became lost in my thoughts, but was actually twenty five minutes later dad pulls up outside the gates of the studio. I thank him before getting out of the car.

"Hello its Emma Simpson here to visit The Vamps. Joe should be expecting me I spoke to him earlier."

"Sorry honey fans aren't allowed in."

"I'm Brad's sister." I say into the speaker by the gates.

"Sorry honey but..."

"Wait a second." I pull my phone out and dial Joe's number.

"What's up Emma?" He asks, I have him on loudspeaker so the receptionist can hear him over the speakers at the gates.

"I'm outside and they won't let me in can you either come and get me or just say I am who I say I am please Joe because they think I am a fan."

"You are a fan love. Not my fault you love your brother's band so much you can't stay away from them." He laughs. "I'll be right there."

"Thank you." We hang up and everything goes quiet. The gates open minutes later and I walk in. Joe is by the desk with a sorrowful looking receptionist who apologises to me as soon as I walk in but I tell her not to worry. We make our way to the studio and Joe asks me what I was doing so I explain that I want to speak to James as well as tell Brad some awesome information, after all he knows Jayna just as much as I do.

Entering the room the boys jump up and hug me although their faces look a mixture of confusion, curiosity and happiness. They all sit down and I sit on my own chair facing them.

"Boys you can have a five minute break."

"Thanks Joe." They chorus. "So what are you doing here?"