Being Brad's Sister

63. Ideas

James' pov

"Four days. That's it. Four days until we leave. That's not exactly a very long time. These past two days have gone so quickly it is like time can't wait for this week to be over and yet here I am trying to prolong time as much as I can. I don't want to leave Emma especially now after finding out that she has our baby growing inside her. Our baby. And I am going on tour! What sort of a person does that make me? Leaving my girlfriend when she is pregnant!" I rant to Brad, letting all of my emotions run out of me. I was excited and I still am but I am starting to think about the reality of things now and it's scaring me. I'm worrying so much about things I didn't even think of considering before.

"James calm down you don't have to worry. Joe will be here soon and we are going to work everything through properly. Yes you worked out how you can get back for the scan but we are going to work everything else out. You'll be there for Emma and so will I. It doesn't make you a bad person having to tour because that's what our job is. Emma knows that. If anything you've had a lucky escape because if her pregnancy is anything like books and films then you'll be glad to be away from it all." He jokes.

"I know but I'm just worried."

"So am I James. I mean she is two years younger than me, she has a boyfriend who has given her a promise ring saying he will never leave her and will always support her and now she has a kid on the way. How do you think that makes me feel?" He laughs.

"I know. How do you think I feel? I gave her a promise ring and promised all that stuff to her, we used protection and still have a kid on the way. It's as scary as hell Brad." I laugh as we attempt to lighten the mood.

"I would say I can imagine but honestly I can't imagine what that's like but either way James you're not on your own. The boys and I are behind you, my dad and your family are backing you. Not forgetting the fans, Joe and Dean."

"I know. I swear this is scarier than a horror movie."

"James you'll be fine you have loads of people backing you up and I bet you and Emma will make great parents."

"How can we be 'great parents' when we live separately? Where will the baby live? It can't have a normal life." Brad doesn't answer me and I know it's because deep down he knows that I am right. Brad opens his mouth but closes it again. "Exactly." I mumble looking down at my hands. If we live separately then we will have to arrange meet ups, when we can look after the kid, it will be moving from house to house. It won't be fair on us or the child.

Joe walks in with a massive smile and a few pieces of paper and his laptop in his hands.

"Hello boys." He chirps as he sits down. He loads his laptop and sets the papers out in front of us. "Right so we have times, dates and estimates so let's try and sort this tour out. Obviously we can't move dates that you are performing but things like interviews and photo shoots can be moved around."

"The first scan is on that date so the other scan should be around this date but we are booking it when we go for the first scan. So is there any chance that we could move that interview if needed?"

"That is a possibility. We will look into it."

"If she is seven weeks pregnant now that means she should be due around this time but we have shows then."

"James we can't move shows. She will be fine and if she does start to give birth then we can get you there in time don't worry."

We continue to look at dates and Joe writes on the piece of paper if we need anything changed. After half an hour we have done everything that we can for now so we get ready to leave.

"Joe can I speak to you a minute please?"

"Sure."

"James I'll catch you up." He smiles at me, I take the hint and leave the room although I can't help but wonder what Brad wants to talk to Joe about. I let the thought leave my head as I pull my phone out and ring Emma.

Brad's pov

"I will see what I can do Brad but that is a great idea." Joe smiles. I'm glad Joe agrees. We are going to speak Connor and Tristan later and then our families to see what they think but I personally think it's a great idea even if I do say so myself. I know it will help.

I leave the studio with Joe to see James on the phone. He laughs harder nearly bending over as he laughs so hard. I laugh at the sight because it's great seeing him so happy especially after what's been going on lately. We are free to do whatever we want for the rest of the day so I might talk to everyone now.

James' pov

Life is changing so quickly and it hard to keep up sometimes but after talking to Brad I do feel a lot better but there is still that voice in the back of my head which is making me have doubts but I just have to try and ignore it. If things are going to work then I am going to have to try and stay positive and work through everything. If it was meant to be then it was meant to be simple as.

Things will work out. I know they will. As Brad said, Emma and I have a lot of support. We can do this.