Being Brad's Sister

23. It continues

Emma's pov

'It will be fine today just ignore them. Don't give them the satisfaction by showing them that they are getting to you.' I have been telling myself this since I woke up this morning. Whether I was in the shower, eating breakfast or getting changed I haven't stopped telling myself this. All day yesterday I've had people calling me all sorts of names, some more unpleasant then others and I am not going to lie. As much as I tried to ignore them, they hurt. A lot. Jayna and Zoey were really supportive and stuck up for me at every chance they got which shut a couple of people up but I am afraid that if they continue to stick up for me then people will turn on them as well and I really don't want that. You can pick on me all you want but pick on my friends and you have crossed the line. 

I am walking to school, still reminding myself in my head over and over again not to give people the satisfaction of showing them that they are getting to me because hopefully if I don't show that they are getting to me then they will leave me alone. At least that is what I hope anyway. Hopefully today will be better than yesterday and it will just be a twenty-four hour phase and everyone is over it. I don't know I am just trying to remain positive, it is the best thing in these situations. Brad taught me that when I was starting to get hate on twitter. 

I walk in through the gates of college and instantly feel self-conscious as everyone is watching me like I am the most fascinating person in the world. A few people start to mutter things and soon a lot of people are talking quietly between themselves but I have a feeling they aren't talking about course work or TV shows. 

"Emma you need to tell Brad and get help sorting this out. You can't handle this on your own." Jayna approaches me. "People haven't stopped bitching about you and as much as Zoey and I are trying they won't stop."

"I can sort this please we don't need Brad. You know what he is like, especially after the whole Sam and Jake situation."

"Alright then at least tell James, he is involved in this as well."

"No Jayna we will be fine. Please don't tell them. Or at least give me some time to try and fix it myself. I am not going to get any brownie points by running off to James, Connor, Tristan or Brad every time something goes wrong."

"Please promise me, if you can't fix this then you will go and get help."

"I promise." Jayna nods accepting my answer but she doesn't look to happy about it. Someone walks past me nudging me hard so I fall into Jayna. "Hey watch where you are going?" They laugh at me and walk off looking all smug. I have a feeling today is going to be slightly worse than yesterday. Jayna and I walk into the building because Zoey isn't in college today as she doesn't have lessons. I go to step through the door but they lock and people won't push the button to let us in so we end up walking round to reception to get in. As we walk to our form room people bash me, mutter names at me and drop doors in my face but I try and take it all in and not show any reaction. 

Brad's pov

I noticed Emma this morning looked a bit distant but as much as I am trying to not think about it I can't stop that little voice in my head telling me that something is wrong. Maybe she was just tired, or she has stress of deadlines because she has been excelled a year or something. I don't really know but I need to speak to her just to confirm that she is okay but for now I need to crack on with this promotion stuff with the band, after all it is nearly Sunday and on Sunday we are going to find out how well our single has been doing throughout the week and where it is in the charts. 

Five days until we find out how Last Night is doing in the charts. I am so excited yet so nervous at the same time.  I know the rest of the boys feel exactly the same as me. We are all really excited to see how the single has done and even though we could check now to see where it is in the charts we don't want to because we don't want to get our hopes up or anything so we are waiting until Sunday when it is on the radio and the charts are released. 

Today we have another mini concert where we are literally going to play four or five songs including Last Night and then after that we are having a radio interview. It's all busy busy busy but I don't really care because it means that the word can spread about our music so more people can enjoy our music.

Emma's pov

"Bitch."

"People don't actually care about you. Even if James says he cares about you, think of the publicity he is getting form it. That is why he is dating you."

"He feels sorry for you, he doesn't love you."

"You just want attention and money don’t you? You're using your brother and now you are using James."

"How long until you start using Connor and Tristan as well?" I look at the people surrounding my table. All I did was come into class and Miss had to show up late didn't she. Everyone got up and started surrounding my table and that is what is happening here.

"Look I am not using anyone. I've liked James since day one."

"You may like him but he doesn't like you."

"He does." I retort trying to sound as strong as possible. If I am being completely everything they are telling me is starting to get to me and I am starting to believe it. For two days now they have been going on about how James just feels sorry for me and everything and I am starting to believe it. What if it is all just a publicity stunt? But I know Joe and he wouldn't do that and I know James and he isn't like that either. 

I stand up sending my chair flying behind me and I grab my bag throwing it on to my back.

"Oh you going to get James are you? Running off to the papers with a sob story." Someone calls after me as I speed walk out of the classroom. I head down the corridor and leave the building as fast as I can. When I am out, I run home as fast as I can. I can't do this. I can't set myself up to be hurt and if what they are saying is true and James is just using me then I know I will be torn so I have to either run from the pain or stand up tall and try and protect myself. Right now, the running option looks more appealing.

Dedication to teenwolfitudex because of all the votes for my chapters and for reading my book

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