second chances ~ ollie bearman (2)

part 7

later that night...

by the time i got home to milton keynes, it was already 5 o'clock. i was meant to be meeting up with some friends in two hours to go to a club for a night out. but honestly i was exhausted after the travel day, and i couldn't be bothered to go.

i send a message to one of my friends to tell them i wasn't going but i would meet up with them a different day. after sending the text, i head straight to bed without changing out of clothes or unpacking. that was a job for the morning.

the next morning, or afternoon, i wake up to the phone non-stop getting message notifications. i groan and roll over to pick it up to turn it on silent, but i notice a message from ollie.

ol 🫶🏼

i can't fucking believe you angelina
don't talk to me again

ollie what on earth are you talking about?

you know exactly what i'm on about!
piss off

*this contact has blocked you*

i didn't know how to react, i was shocked, confused, angry, sad. i have no clue what i had done, but then i get a message from paul. clearly everyone except me knows.

paul 🏎️

is it true?
did you really kiss that guy last night?
*photo*

no
paul, it's not me.
last night i was meant to go out, but i cancelled and went to sleep as soon as i got home

i didn't think you would do it, but i had to check. i'm sorry
what's ollie said?

he broke up with me
and blocked me

i can't believe he would do that

i can't believe any of this
who is so sick in their mind to make a fake photo of me kissing someone and post it?!
this will ruin my reputation
everyone is going to hate me
ollie hates me!!
i can't stay here

come and stay with me
you can stay away from media and clear your head, have some space from ollie and then talk it out

really?
only if your sure

of course, your one of my best friends angel
when should i book the flight for?

tonight?
i don't want to be here tomorrow night when ollie comes home. that's if he even comes home.

i end up on a call with paul for at least an hour, kimi also joining the facetime, crying over the breakup with them both trying to reassure me, saying ollie was an idiot for believing the photo. but they both had training to get back too, so i started packing for the few days in estonia.

my flight was in 6 hours, but it was a two hour drive to get to the airport, so i had to hurry and get ready before leaving soon.

i put my hair in a quick slick back ponytail, and only mascara for makeup. i put on the most simple, comfy outfit. pretty much the first thing of mine that i could find on the floor.

(outfit below)

everything was ready for me to leave to estonia, and before heading to the taxi downstairs, i take one more look around the apartment that i spent months planning, years dreaming of. and now, it was gone.

all because someone got bored and decided to ruin me. and trust me, i'm ruined even though im lying to myself saying im not. i have never been worse.

i opened up to ollie, something i don't do often. and clearly i choose the wrong people. nick, well he abused me. flo, she killed herself. ollie, doesn't trust me. kimi is the only one i truly believe i have left. i just want to disappear.

fuck this place, i need to leave.

i slam the door shut and make my way down to the taxi, hood up to stop the chance of anyone recognising me. once i was in the taxi, i connect my airpods to my phone and click play on my playlist so i could focus on the music, and disconnect from the thoughts in my head.

playing "train wreck" by james arthur

i had messages coming non-stop from people, but i just didn't have energy to reply. and i didn't want to either. i only want ollie to message me. so i put my phone on airplane mode to stop the messages from coming through.

i lean my head against the window and exhale, why did this have to happen to me? surely enough bad stuff has happened to me? was i some sort of murderer in a past life??

|| authors note ~ i would say, hope you enjoy, but this is a very sad part 😭 poor angel and ollie.

don't worry, it gets better!

im so sad for logan they should have given him the rest of the year. but im also happy for franco, so i dont know what to think. i wanna know what you think