second chances ~ ollie bearman (2)

part 72

"is this a bad time to say i need the toilet?" kimi says.

"your joking." i say, before groaning.

"yeah yeah im joking." he says.

"thank god." ollie says, laughing a little.

"well, what do we do? i don't trust them saying half an house." i say.

"well there's not much option is there? we are locked in a tiny box, that could drop any second." kimi says, whilst i give him a look, yet still tightening my grip on ollie's hand.

"we aren't going to fall, relax." ollie says.

"oh, yeah i know that." i lie.

after a few more minutes of play argueing with kimi, he finally gives in and says i'm not scared. oh i'm definitely scared.

"this is what we get for being lazy." i say, groaning with my head lent back against the wall.

"it could have happened to anyone." ollie says.

"but it does always happen to us." kimi says.

"we've never been stuck in an elevator before?"

"well no, but if something happens, it does tend to happen to us." kimi explains.

"it really does. especially me." i say, both ollie and kimi agreeing with me.

"what would you name your kids?" i ask ollie whilst kimi zones out of the conversation, focused on his phone

"my kids? you mean our kids." he corrects.

"well yes, there's no way your awkwardness has found you another girl." i joke.

"well i mean i do have normal angel, then angry angel-"

"i get the joke." i say, cutting him off while he smiles across at me.

"for a boy?" he asks.

"i have a list!" i say, before pulling my phone out of my pocket as kimi rejoins the conversation.

"of course you have a list of baby names." he says.

"eli has one too. and most girls." i say, whilst finding the list.

"ah, here. for a boy there's luca, or lucas. which i mean are alright. but my favourite one, is teddy well actually theo or theodore. but teddy for a nickname." i say quickly.

"yeah?" ollie says.

"you like it?" i ask him.

"of course i do." he says, kissing the top of my head.

"kimi? what do you think?" i ask.

"er yeah, i like teddy." he says.

"and girls names?" ollie asks.

"do you have any?" i ask.

"well, maybe just one. avery."

"your joking."

"what? is it bad, i'm not good at names."

"no no, that's my name too." i say.

"great minds think alike." he replies, as i grip onto him as the elevator moves beneath us.

"i think they fixed it." ollie says, as the elevator takes us up, holding out his hand to help me stand up.

"thank god for that. kimi ate you coming to our room with us?" i ask, noticing he had been quiet for a while.

"uhm no. thanks. i'm just going to go back to my room." he says, before saying goodbye and leaving.

"that's not normal for kimi." ollie says from behind me.

"no, i don't know what happened. maybe he got a message?" i suggest.

"yeah, and don't worry about him. he could just be tired." ollie replies.

"if im tired he definitely is."

"well then, let's get back to the hotel room. then you can go to sleep."

as soon as we were back at the hotel, i climbed into bed. i was honestly exhausted, even though i had no reason to be. but i was grateful to be in a comfortable bed, even more that there was actually enough space for me and ollie.

"ollie hurry up im cold!" i shout out, as ollie was using the bathroom.

"im coming now." he says, as the door opens.

he climbs into bed beside me after closing the window curtains, placing his arm around me as i rest my head against his chest.

"baby?" he asks softly.

"hm?" i really.

"i love you, and i can't wait to marry you."

"i love you too." i reply, smiling to myself.

it didn't take long for ollie to fall asleep, but for some reason, i couldn't. i was tired, but it was like my body was refusing to sleep. i slip out of ollie's arms and begin scrolling through tiktok to pass the time, before climbing out of the bed and heading to the bathroom to post a tiktok.

"it's all a lie, honestly it's eating me alive.
they're all like, 'did you change your hair? did you loose a little weight?
you should keep it up, 'cause it really looks great'

i hate that i, always look my best. when im dying on the inside."

after filming the video, i found myself rewatching it, over and over and over and over and over again. my mind was practically screaming at me. you look ugly. you look fat. you should loose all the weight you gained. everyone is going to laugh at you.

i take a deep breath, and clock the post button before leaving the bathroom, putting my phone down on the bedside table, grabbing a pair of shoes and leaving the room to walk around the hotel. i needed to think alone. i completely forgot about ollie asleep in the bed.

i guess i had a lot to think about, because i was walking around for a while. almost 45 minutes, so i headed back to the hotel. i almost debated getting the elevator, but i didn't trust it. so instead i begin the long trek of stairs. once i got back to my floor, i spot kimi a little bit ahead of me.

(italian)

"kimi!" i say, grabbing his attention.

"lina? i thought you were going to sleep?" he replies, walking over.

"yeah, but i couldn't sleep. ollie's asleep though."

"that's fine, i needed to talk to you actually."

"what's wrong?"

"can we go to my room? it's stupid, but i just can't stop thinking about it. and i thought that since you and ollie have been dating for a while you could help me?"

"of course." i reply, following kimi to his room whilst being extremely confused.

|| authors note ~ hope you enjoy! 🫶🏼