second chances ~ ollie bearman (2)

part 85

a few hours later, it was the last 30 minutes until the race. the cars were all lined up on the grid, mine in p4. yet everyone was back in the garages to shelter from the rain whilst the cars were covered with canopies.

there was the chance the the race would be delayed from the rain, and it probably would be.

"how you doing?" jules asks, taking a seat beside me.

"sorry?" i reply, taking my headphones off.

"how are you doing? are you feeling okay?" he repeats, laughing slightly.

"ill be alright, just didn't wake up feeling the best today. a little tired. i think i just need to get back into routine, with everything that's happened recently."

"yeah, it's been tough. have you eaten enough today?"

"i ate with you earlier, remember?"

"what about this morning?"

"no, uhm i woke up late so we didn't have time." i say, a little quieter after seeing jules' reaction.

"angel! you can't be doing that! i thought you were trying to get better?"

"i-i am! i am getting better."

"two days doesn't mean anything if you still aren't eating enough. you could have said something to me."

"it's hard, jules it's so fucking hard."

"i can imagine. have you spoken to kimi yet?"

"no, not yet. i mean, i think he knows, he's probably guessed. but i haven't told him in person."

"you should do, he can help you."

"i will, after the race. i wouldn't want him to worry."

"we are all worried angel."

"i know, i know. believe me im really trying this time, i don't want to be like this."

"let's get you some food." he says, standing up from the chair.

"but jules, the race is soon? surely i can't."

"well, im your engineer. and i say you can." he says, as i stand up as well.

he put his hand on my shoulder making sure i was coming with him, as he takes me over to the food area and hands me a granola bar.

"eat this, you have a few minutes before the national anthem." he says, before i nod and head back to the chair.

jules came back and sat beside me, starting up a conversation whilst i ate.

once i was done, i had to head to the national anthem as it was starting in a matter of minutes. on the way out of the garage, i grab an aston martin branded umbrella to shelter me from the rain.

luckily for me, i ended up stood next to ollie. which was also lucky for him, as he didn't think to bring an umbrella with him, so i let him share mine.

once the national anthem was over, i felt horrible for the performers who had to perform in the horrible weather, although if you think about it, we would technically be doing the same thing.

"i'll walk you back to haas, or else you will get soaked." i say, walking past the aston martin garage with ollie.

we walked hand in hand, his free hand holding the umbrella over us both as we chatted away about the event of next week, coldplay. if there was ever a time i needed my spirits boosting, it would probably be now. and i know a night out with ollie, kimi, and eli, would definitely do that.

"well, this is where i leave you." i say, as we finally reach haas, the final garage of grid.

"well, good luck. i will see you after the race." he says, leaning down to kiss me before handing over the umbrella.

"on the podium." i remind him.

"well yes, but ill see you before that."

"okay, okay." i say, smiling at my boyfriend.

"good luck." i say, before we both say our goodbyes and i head off to aston martin.

once i enter the garage, i was told the race was delayed. but it would probably be starting only 15 minutes late, as the race was beginning to ease off. so, to begin preparing, i put my headphones back on, and click play on my playlist.

and finally, 20 minutes later, i was sat in the car waiting for the formation lap to start. i just needed to race again, to clear my mind from everything.

"radio check"

"loud and clear." i reply, taking a deep breath.

"take it easy angel."

"you know me jules, you know i don't do that." i say, as the cars ahead of me begin the lap.

|| authors note ~ hope you enjoy!