For you are dust, and to dust you shall return.
It was a line from Genesis 3:19.
A Bible verse that made me realize that death is inevitable.
We couldn’t avoid death.
We are born to die. We live to die. We are here to die.
Our life on Earth is only temporary, and we know that.
We are not afraid to die, but we are afraid to die early.
At least for others…
Because for some, what they want is to die.
Death…
It’s tragic for most people, but for others who keep on just forcing themselves to live in this cruel world… It’s an escape—a reward.
I am not scared of death…
Bata pa lang ako ay naiintindihan ko na na walang permanente sa mundo… Mapabagay, tao, o kung ano man…
We had life to die…
Alam ko iyon kaya hindi ako takot na dadating ang araw na may mga taong malalapit sa akin na iiwan ang mundong ito.
Pero… Akala ko lang pala handa na ako…
Not until I heard that devastating news about Celeste…
The angel I only met twice but who already created a special and reserved place in my heart…
I know that she’s silently suffering because of her sickness… I also know that her life is shorter than the other kids… Than us…
Her life was set to bid goodbye on this earth early but not as early as this…
Why do expected things happen earlier than we expect?
Is this how the world does its work? Is this how the world does surprises?
Napakapangit naman… Napakasakit…
Kairo didn’t plan to introduce Celeste to the world that way… But how did that happen?
Everything seems so transparent… Starting from the news telling the whole world that the precious angel I met passed away… Until the announcement that the burial will be held three days after…
Kairo didn’t say anything, but I know that he is the one who’s telling the media to broadcast every detail about Celeste.
Hindi siya humaharap sa media… Ilang beses na pinapalabas na tanging paghabol lang ang nagagawa ng media dahil hindi niya pinapaunlakan ang mga ito.
He always wears sunglasses… And I know that he’s having it so bad…
Simula noong marinig ko ang balitang iyon ay hindi ko na pinapatay ang TV na nasa loob ng aking hospital room.
Gusto kong malaman lahat ng nangyayari kay Kairo… Kay Celeste…
Hanggang ngayon ay hindi pa rin ako makapaniwala na ang dahilan kung bakit ko iniwan si Kairo at para maprotektahan siya ay tuluyan nang namaalam sa mundo.
Celeste really left us… She left her family…
She left her Kuya Kai…
I also left Kairo…
And I know how devastating it is for him…
I want to run to him and hug him… Take him back into my arms, but I know I couldn’t.
I’m also so destroyed…
Isip ko na lang ang gumagana…
Dalawang araw mula nang nangyari ay sobrang panghihina pa rin ang aking naramdaman.
